Hello 2021 January and Feb

 Finally Back again was on Hiatus... It was a Crazy December 2020 the landlord surprise visitation, cut the story short he told me I have to evacuate the apartment fast, as known the house leader has failed to negotiate with the owner, then he just broke the 4 years contract our deposit forfeited, then i have to leave within few days.

Busy like a Bee

Was busy like a bee, looking for a new place to move and looking for new....and looking for new jobs and attended a few interviews. Thank God found a place without contract that means if i found new place i can just ditch my House leader.

January 2021,

Now New challenges arise, all the local businesses are slowing because of COVID19 and the Lockdown. Hope everything gets better, I have joined some Entrepreneur classes and Sidehustle Classes, but the problem is Always lack of budget, I cannot go ALL OUT.

VINCE tan Masterclass Charge very high,  Normally these webinars, They advertise their workshop online like Facebook and YouTubes, these are the commonplace where those stranded in.

Yes, things are not perfect as it Seen... This picture Illustrates all.  Tearful Eyes and Mouthful of Foams...

Hope Next month things will be better when I apply different strategies into the ball game of Life. 

After taking caffein mind are fulls of ideas, But I have to document it before it fades, don't have time to practice all in the same time, so gotta record it first ... Test it later. 

Backthen, Here and Now

 Hey Friends, 👍

I am back, Always apologize being Hiatus...A lot of things happened, Really Bring me to tears and Old Fears revisited me.

Back to Track Lets hope something better i coming in December, I have to work hard, and smart to get me Out of this situation.

Even, typing my eyes swell with Tears, While typing listen to Emotional Chinese Songs, It helps me to pour out all the emotions.😓

Friends Left, Lost Job, suddenly have to move house, suddenly felt the weight of the world on my shoulder, remember to Ex-bosses I had, those wasted time.😖

Intense Feeling, at that point really i have the thought to End my life, but that call saved my life, Some random call from this Church workers, she asked whether can pray for me. What a relief, Thank God.

Finally understood, that when people kill themselves, they actually don't want to die it is the sudden surge or urge that cause them to have such boldness to stab or jump down from building ...

No worries, I won't do it... Probably need to wait the emotions to settle, listen to emotional song to get the tears start flowing.😥

Alright share until here, Remember to reach out to stranger, understood sometime people we know refuse to listen or they are not ready, I have tried to open then end up more Hurt. I think in future i will drift further and further away from them make friends with people who are like minded, positive, ever-learning attitudes. 

Surround with Positive friends 😀if you do not have now, no worries start reaching our for them... while negative relatives and family members I have say BYE with them, although it hurts but it will HEAL fast.💪😷 

April's Fool, Nobody's fool

I am April's fool.

Fool for believing you 2nd time , giving you 2nd chance to hurt me.

Never again I will let you to do this.

Hardening my heart preventing it be hurt again.

I am nobody's fool, giving you 2nd chance doesn't  mean I am stupid  just that cared too much about this relationship.

For now it doesn't  matter for me everyone is the same, people tend to be dishonest and double standards.

These are the attributes I hated the most.

Today is the saddest day, a mixtures of pain, anger and sadness.

I will grow out from this pain. 

Enough of explaining myself, no one hears everyone assuming and not asking, that's fine that is how the world 🌎 operates.

Feeling expressed here have no prejudice to anyone not any religion it is purely from my heart. Feel free to leave my page if you don't  really like an honest mistakes.

Bye 2016

Bye 2016

Welcome 2017!!!

Say good bye to 2016

Looking forward for something new.


Life is not always ups, sometime down....

But think on the brighter side I wish all is well, hope for the best is yet to come.
2017, I will surrender my life to the almighty....
2016, I did it my way ended so bad, landed on wrong side, get hurts and wounds
Hopefully, all will be well again when i realigned the priorities of life.

It has been a rough years in 2016, I have learned many life lessons.



New Job is coming, New opportunity.....
Hope all the best, in 2017 in your life...

Will update more, what is going on and share more of my own personal thoughts and perspectives
Will be more expressive than last year....
Will be more noisy, more frequent post and updates.
Will be updating my blog more frequent
thank you my regular readers for your support.

 

Happiness is Simple

Happiness is simple,

It could be sharing foods with people we love.

It could be sharing our most inner part 

For me Happiness is easy

Happiness having enough food,

A place to rest my head,

A bunch of positive supportive friends that you could call them

brother and sister in Christ.

A throwback that day I bought this affordable food, Rojak

Rojak, is the local Mixed tropical fruits with special sweet and spicy dressing.

If Oversea friend drop by Malaysia they must try this Malaysian Food.

Guess how much I paid for this Food?

It cost about RM5.50 portion is quite large, with alot of sauce

This Rojak hawker , he usually start selling from lunch break until 6pm.

His store is situated nearby Genting Kelang, Wet Market.

Feel free to drop Comments, recommendations or any Inquiries....

I will reply when available =) 

Thanks for reading

Choose to Leave or Stay

Am I going to delete those negative people and stop their influence over my life?
Choice is yours, to change or remain...
Well i choose to change, despite of my situation what could i do?
Not to react any dramas causes by them but remain calm at all time stay away from them as far as possible.

Who is the them ?
Those negative people.
Have you ever came across some people who come to you with only complains but when you have understand what they are going through and presented solutions to them, they ignored and continue to complains the situations they are going through.
Telling you, you never understood until you gone through thinking their problems are so unique they are the only person in the world is suffering it.

Self-pity fellas, such a pathetic being, he know what he is going through but refuse to take actions,
have everyone on the list to be blame except himself.
Everyday dialogs are "poor me "
Talking to them drains much of my Mana  ( energy).
I have plan my way out , stay away from them before they demotivate me and bring me along with them to the pit of hell.

I am jovial person, I may have alot of optimistic energy but it will be drained out speaking with self-pity...
Day after day they will come to you the same complains, fucked just get a life.
Sometime I think why don't you change if you are unhappy with your current situations, instead of complain.

New Season of Life

Happy =)
A short updates, what is my life's on going ....
Ushering the New Season of Life is coming, gotta keep calm, but I am super exciting about it.
Alot of prayers and preparation for that ....

Recently received some calls and attended a few interviews.

Hope that I will able to get in Marcus Evan company, so far the best interview I ever had,
I have a meaningful chat with the manager, if I am successful will make it to next round.

Lot of experience gained through meeting alot of seniors in the business arena.
Heart is full of gratefulness, hope i will have a great start.

Unhappy. Insomnia. Sleeplessness

Today I have just finish all my work, somehow finished sorting out my stuff and it is already 2am.

Just now I feel sleepy but after while sorting old files, saw some old profile reminded me Unhappy events in the past, back then I was innocent easily cheated and bullied.

How I wish back then I was smart full of wisdom and able to evade most of those attacks.
Unfortunately life don't work that way, we have to go through this experience, Life lesson then forever it will registered in my mind.

Realised, when one is unhappy it is hard to fell asleep ......
I don't know why, I do not wanna close my eyes just wanna stay awake keep my mind occupy with productive thoughts and keep my hand workings.

I need help,
Slowly I am into darkness...
Cloud of depression coming,
Suicidal thoughts ( yes, I have plenty of those but I delay It)
I have planned to Commit suicide at certain age, mayb around 35 years old, so I am young forever =)
After death then no need bother by those endless thoughts.
Not a bad idea, dying young.

XOXO
keep it secret over here.

Sleepless NIght

Well another Sleepless night.

As night comes people's mind are more active, according to a psychology journal that I have read.
Is it True?

Well I think it is true, according to the journal usual day we are so distracted by lot of stuffs , (need to be done)

As night arise,  we our to do list shorten, and our mind start thinking about past, present and future.
For me I took coffee, and my mind is still very sharp although the body is tired but the mind is spinning fast.

Learn to live at the moment, and do not let the worry of tomorrows nor regret of yesterday robs you of today's blessings. LIVE NOW, have to constantly remind myself.

For now
Goodnight
Nature's calling to bed.

OH My August

Oh My August,
July have left now august, have to secure the month,
Time flies, was in holiday for sometime
Time to get Employ again.
Whatever it is got to take a chance, Breakaway from this current situation.
Be bold to face every obstacles of life.
Cannot afford to be indecisive, Just have to plan and execute....
It has been sometime I have been indecisive and Procrastinate , time to take back the turf
Time to redeem back those lost time,
Months I feel into these DOTA addictions, It is time to call it off.

Things I need to achieve.
Find new job, New Career pathway, be contented yet not complacent, Constantly improve overall well being ( intellectual, physical, spiritual)

Never give up on your dreams, just that there are few small sets backs, remind yourself the GOAL.
Life is a process , sometimes we have to go through some setbacks gained some experience, through the experience it form resilient.

Mid year Review.
Goal that I want to achieve a better physical outlook, have a better body, Shoulder, arms , Huge Chest, V-shape Back, Well developed.

Better career advancement.Flourish in the Financial service and Fitness Industry
More customers, larger network platform, ultimately more money

Hope that are will be well =)
May the odds will be in my favour

June's Blessing

Be it like or hate
well life still move on...
we can't hate and love together, yet love and hate relationship does exist in a human relationships

Well sorry guys and Girls, I have been away for a long time.
Quick updates:
Recently I have got a job in a local GYM, work as a personal trainer,

Grateful to have a manager that take good care of me, Unfortunately I have an abusive boss,
Verbally abusive, although have a handsome outlook, but when it comes to rage and anger,
He threw it all....
Look horrible when he pout, unleash out all the anger to my manager....
There is something good about him, he just very lenient when it comes to certain stuff,
however too lenient in managing his business, he took his employee for granted.
Salary likewise is little, the full maximum amount of job he demand to work from Monday to Saturday, sad to say i have realized, my Salary as personal coach is lower than the MCD workers, and people who in Starbucks is pay better than me.
Initially, joining this company is my goal to pursue what I am passion about, but in reality unfortunately this passion hardly sustain the lifestyle.

At first i thought of staying and continue my work as personal coach while i could do some part time on weekend to sustain my living cost, but i cannot continue, because there have been times where the boss delay the payment of my salary, the 3rd time tried to delay , I have request an advance payment instead, and then after he have paid me I left the job giving the excuse of further study.

In the midst of my trouble, met Jason, he introduced me to Public Mutual, Met Miss Wei Joo, her story truly inspired me to be a Unit Trust Consultant. Which inspired me to continue in what I am good at Business & Financial Planning. I also plan to take my Financial Paper

Indeed I am Grateful, for the good and bad, the high ad the lo that I have gone through... I believe all things work Good For those who Love HIM (GOD).

with a Grateful Heart,
Your beloved Son,

Lesson Learnt

Lesson Learnt

ouch I know it burns.
First I want to thank you, my ex-boss from Fitcore Fitness
Underpaid salary, long haul of work time from 10am to 12am,
I am paid for peanuts,
The major reason that I left the company because the delay payment of salary,
The Boss told me that usually there is a delay payment of salary caused by the Accountant,
resposibility have pushed aside to the accountant saying normally salary will be out on the 15th of every month.

I felt really angry, as I am expected to come on time for work, I also expect my employer would pay to me on time, unfortunately I felt that he did that intentionally, because for the first 2 month he delay our pay before in april and May,  he said on June onwards salary will be out on the 15th, I cannot accept it I decided to leave the company, Fitcore Fitness. For those who have been checking the company background , this is it , a brief info, this is a new company existed no longer than 3 years.

The thing I have discover while clearing the files, first most of the Ex- employees left , the managers and boss did not gave clear reasons why they left , I have realized the many employees left on the first quarter of the year 2016, probably due to the reasons where the boss he did not pay them well, long haul of working time...

 

 I gave my resignation letter on 3rd July, 2016, I couldn't take it anymore....

After spoken to a Servant of the Lord, she have prayed for me, I have received the boldness, The next day I spoken to my Manager of my resignation.
Initially I have promised to help him until Wednesday, then I have changed my mind, I have decided to state my last dy on Sunday instead, short pain is better than long suffering

Reflection - Year Quarter have passed

It has been awhile, after Chinese New Year I am Lazy to blog, 

Short updates here, 

A lot of things over my mind , my focus are blurred, losing the cutting edge

received a useful advice....

Got to have a laser light focus in the things we do.

We might have alot of talents,limited time so we need to prioritize which talents to develop

turn it into cutting-edge skill.

Focus on your strength that will have competitive edge towards your rival

Finally Destroy what may destroy you, it might be a bad habits or stinking attitude that require change.

A bad attitude is like a Flat tires, you can't go far in Life.

remain humble and steadfast in Love.

She have Changed

Yesterday Sucks I feel like Dying, all the fractions of the past and present intertwine..

Unexplained Sadness keep dwelling for days and weeks

But

No worry I am still strong,

No matter how hard I will never took my own life

everything used to be.....

Now every sentence start with this word

"Used to be..."

People changes whether you can accept it or not,

It is a harsh fact and a lot of truths within.

Whether they grow together or they growth apart.

Well it depends how is the communication.

People grow cold or they grow warmer, this is how friendships grows and Family ties...

Some have blood ties and they thought because they have bloodties they need not to be constantly communicate effectively, which lead to many misunderstanding and even breaking in the family.

People hate each others, People no longer wanna talk to each other.

This is how i felt constant frustration in communication which caused me not to speak at all during this festive season of Chinese New Year.

Didn't stop me anyway, finally I have learnt to shut up and react less, yeah I admit it takes a lot of patience and handwork.

Fear and Anger has it place in me, still along way to go...

Today my Eldest sister have tasted my wrath, I have just scolded her violently with all the harsh words propelled like rockets and Flame

Well this Chinese New Year I have a few resolutions which I have promised myself, not to take things so personal in friendship, let it be for Relationship that I cannot keep, I will not sustain but abstain from it. I have decided long ago, but dare not take action. Let me face every obstacles with boldness.

Dear God, gimme strength and wisdom to overcome all the obstacles, 

6th Feb 2016.... vision embedded,

Uncertainty

I do not understand this type of feeling, which i am struggling....

Uncertainty of many things was around, especially appointments that i need to meet,

who should you give priority.

Uncertainty the Job, and career path that I am going and thinking would I have enough money to survive

At the moment I felt I am Stuck, but I believe I am In the hand of my creator.

He who hold the stars and moon will not slumber,

He will watch over me, He will be my guide

He take cares everything.

Constantly need to remind myself, 

I am yours, whatever I have is yours, and you are mine.

The scripture Matt 6:33 came across my mind seek ye First the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you.

Meditate the scripture until it sinks into my Heart and Soul.

Till Now I surrender all to you,

keep on enjoy your fellowship and rest in you.


These 2 songs speak to me personally, be bless by those songs

                                               

                                      10,000 Reasons (Bless The Lord)

                                               

Who Am I (Casting Crown)

Consistency is the Key

Today went through a day of hell

Last week met Manager He told me he will help me reinstate my agent contract, however he didn't 

today I have tried to Login into my company's website but failed then I have contacted my Unit manager, he told me I was terminated.

Last week from our conversation I clearly understood that He promised he will reinstate my account but in terms I need to submit 3 cases.

He have changed, what he have said earlier on changed, he said, " Justin, you are terminated submit 3 cases else i won't reinstate your contract.

I was stoned, My mind freeze i did not ask much, as soon the do session and case followup session end, i quickly left.

Later on i realized is my manager worth trusting?? After I have completed 3 cases will he transfer the all my existing service client back to me? after I have done the goal will he double cross and said I need to 5 more....

Nevertheless, Father I commit all these into your hand, right Now I just do 3 cases, If he do not fulfill his promised I will resigned and join His competitors company, I guess this is the Plan B.

Consistent is the Key in everything, Last year sales did not meet target so i think he have the right to terminate me but I have request for reinstatement, I will be more focus compare to last time.

Last year lesson learnt, too many doubts and fear, procrastination kicks in , all of them seems work in team to paralyze you. As for me i know i am not that consistent enough, once received a rejection from a prospect i need alot of time to get myself back, Before, during and after sales I also have such anxiety, no doubt this job is challenging and rewarding.

Beside that I am not consistent enough in following up skill in customer service, procrastination always kick in because of fear of calling.

Always Curious easily distracted is one of my traits, though everything seems interesting, I may have the curiosity to learn but easily distracted from the straight path. For instance computer games, and various gatherings, unfruitful meeting might have contributed to that.

Bottom line, be consistent in everything you do, Give it all and even when you have failed you will have no regrets. Consistency is start from Habit, start to form positive habit that will build your character and life skills.

As I have Promised..... But Failed

As I have promised Last year and the year before atleast a Blog a Day.
Eventually I have failed, never mind moving on to the changing part.
This is the most exciting part, I have decided to Post less stuff in Facebook, but rather express myself freely in BLOGGER.

Attachment with Facebook it has been an unhealthy one, coming together with its apps in mobile phone, makes it a real distraction. So, I have decided to pull myself away from Facebook, stop nagging and complaining things over there instead I could share my insights in blog, moreover it help me to improve writing skills( another ways to express myself)

Few day ago I have tried to deactivate Facebook, but urge come strongly, It last only a day and Night.
I think i should delete the facebook apps so logging in will be challenging for me.


Social Media is a double edged sword either it could improve your productivity or destructive distraction tools. constant feeds and Alert could really distract you from the main coarse of your schedule.

How to overcome it?
For me I am still overcoming it.....
What I could do I install an apps help me to stay focus for 10 minutes , don't look down on 10 minutes of focus, you could really perform better compare to 50 minutes of multitask.
This Apps call Forest, it is quite cool it help u to stay focus, after completing staying away from phone on the designated time, you will earn a tree. Start as a seed, as time goes by it will slowly grow into tree.

Final say 

Sometime we are so busy of checking people out and we have forgotten to live their life

Live At the Moment, Enjoy Life, Stay away From Facebook(Social media)

Moment of Inspiration, Greater Blessing is coming

Times of refreshing.
Here in your presence
there is no Greater Blessing
than being with you.

This phrase keep on echoing in my heart
The art of thanksgiving is yet to be perfected in my life.
I am still on the long road.

Do you know what is the key to happiness?
Thanksgiving.
I am thankful what I have been gone through the good and bad, that make me of what I am.

Fear.
It is very common, I strike almost everybody just the degree of it might be greater or lessor.
Never afraid of making mistakes. Remind yourself there is no Failure only feedbacks. If you fail rise up again and learnt from mistakes, move on, stop harboring in the pass.

Forgiveness
most people been struggling with releasing forgiveness, the saying of I forgive you is easy but doing gets challenging at most time.
Never the less it take courage to face the offender.

Searching MYSELF

As young writer
the constant struggle finding one's identity as a writer
Feel free to drop me Comments and Feedback.
I will work on the improvement after all I am Learning =)

If God is willing I wanna try to earn a living as a Writer.
Always like to try something New.
The most common ways to describe me
" Always Curious to learn, easily distracted"

I will Give you all the best, Sharing From Life experience and Insights.
Writing give me ways to express myself, since coming out from depression, Never wanna go back to that place anymore, will share more victory over defeated mindsets

Sincerely Justin

NEW YEAR 2016

New Year 2016

New Beginning,
New Seasons
New Changes,
Change become the antique.

Mother Therasa Once Said,
 ' Some people come into our life as blessing some come into our lives as lessons'
I have learned alot thank God.
Scammers and Real Friends help me learn what is the realistic life


Just today my roommate have spoken to a few of my other housemates,
He refuse to let us the roommates to know what actually happened
I do not know what is the new conspiracy is this.
For now he act like leaders of the room that is pact with the leader of the house.

He keep spreading the news that does not allow us(roommates) to know.
I do not know what but I surrender all to YOU LORD JESUS.
Believing NO weapon form against me will prosper.
All things work well for those who LOVE HIM (JESUS)


I take RISK again, indeed i trust in you LORD. This year 2016 make it a different year.
In Faith I believe I will archieved this year GOALS.
I will take on 2 jobs. One it will be a Sales Executive job the other will be Financial Consultant, working day and night. Lifestyle gonna be change time to be serious with my own careers wake up Justin You are 26 years old. It is time to give your all, I am ALL IN, full gear