December again =)

Often heard,
December be kind to me , January be kind to me....

Very often have we think, have we be kind to ourself.
How we manage our time , relationship and family.

Think again in December, anything we have neglected....
haha this year I have survived, I almost died.
Thank God, help sent from various area.... when I felt life is slopping downward

Thank God, for the Mentors,
Thank God, for the prayers and supports.

I am Grateful for the Good and Bad Have happened,
God always provide a way for me ....
Ever faithful God

Forgiveness is A Choice

It seems that I am not really a forgiving person...
I have said you can only DiD this once.
Many I friendship I have written off, i don't really care much....

Endure it Justin, Just a short while, pain is temporary, glory is forever...
The pain you gone through, the tough situation and the Hard people yo have met
Going through this develop patience, perseverance and endurance.

Have I not prayed to God to removed all these stings, wonder why don't GOD bring me to heaven
the moment I said the sinner's prayer?
Have you wonder why??
Have you ever question about it ?
As time goes by, I realized that we are called , chosen to be the generations that make a difference...
Be the Salt of the Earth and the Light of the World.

I chose to Forgive even though it is Hard, I choose to Obey your commandment because I love you
I will keep all your commandments because I love you.
Lord, I have prayed that never let my heart grow cold towards you and others.
There was a time, I was so badly wounded, I have chosen the road of rebellion, Walking a life of hatred, have Harden my heart so that I won't feel hurt when people try to hurt me.
No longer feel angry, sad nor anguish.....
That kind of emotion numbness have transformed me into a person I couldn't  understand,
Slowly the cloud of depression and the fog of fear cover my vision.
Realized the devil strategy to destroy a person, is through separation of between, God , Self and others. One who is not able relate themselves with others , God and even themselves.

Thankfully God have delivered me from these Depression and Fears, HIS perfect love cast out all fears...
Thank you God, your faithfulness never end despite me walk away, you still will woo me back with your everlasting love.
( Continue.....)

June's Blessing

Be it like or hate
well life still move on...
we can't hate and love together, yet love and hate relationship does exist in a human relationships

Well sorry guys and Girls, I have been away for a long time.
Quick updates:
Recently I have got a job in a local GYM, work as a personal trainer,

Grateful to have a manager that take good care of me, Unfortunately I have an abusive boss,
Verbally abusive, although have a handsome outlook, but when it comes to rage and anger,
He threw it all....
Look horrible when he pout, unleash out all the anger to my manager....
There is something good about him, he just very lenient when it comes to certain stuff,
however too lenient in managing his business, he took his employee for granted.
Salary likewise is little, the full maximum amount of job he demand to work from Monday to Saturday, sad to say i have realized, my Salary as personal coach is lower than the MCD workers, and people who in Starbucks is pay better than me.
Initially, joining this company is my goal to pursue what I am passion about, but in reality unfortunately this passion hardly sustain the lifestyle.

At first i thought of staying and continue my work as personal coach while i could do some part time on weekend to sustain my living cost, but i cannot continue, because there have been times where the boss delay the payment of my salary, the 3rd time tried to delay , I have request an advance payment instead, and then after he have paid me I left the job giving the excuse of further study.

In the midst of my trouble, met Jason, he introduced me to Public Mutual, Met Miss Wei Joo, her story truly inspired me to be a Unit Trust Consultant. Which inspired me to continue in what I am good at Business & Financial Planning. I also plan to take my Financial Paper

Indeed I am Grateful, for the good and bad, the high ad the lo that I have gone through... I believe all things work Good For those who Love HIM (GOD).

with a Grateful Heart,
Your beloved Son,

Uncertainty

I do not understand this type of feeling, which i am struggling....

Uncertainty of many things was around, especially appointments that i need to meet,

who should you give priority.

Uncertainty the Job, and career path that I am going and thinking would I have enough money to survive

At the moment I felt I am Stuck, but I believe I am In the hand of my creator.

He who hold the stars and moon will not slumber,

He will watch over me, He will be my guide

He take cares everything.

Constantly need to remind myself, 

I am yours, whatever I have is yours, and you are mine.

The scripture Matt 6:33 came across my mind seek ye First the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you.

Meditate the scripture until it sinks into my Heart and Soul.

Till Now I surrender all to you,

keep on enjoy your fellowship and rest in you.


These 2 songs speak to me personally, be bless by those songs

                                               

                                      10,000 Reasons (Bless The Lord)

                                               

Who Am I (Casting Crown)

Who is MotherGod?

I am Sure most of you have heard being approach by  a 2 or 3 people asking you do a survey.
Am I right?
They say they are doing religious culture and study?
After doing the survey they will prompt you to mother God's existence and they will try to baptize you with water in order to secure your "salvation".

Recently I believe many of you all have done the survey, I am referring people who live in Kuala Lumpur, Setapak ( place where alot of college and university student stays).

So People be vigilant, they are targeting Christian, If you are christian who do not know the bible well, i would suggest that you leave them alone when they approach you, cause they gonna disrupt the very foundations of your believe and turn you into their mindless slave, using fear and condemnation to get your obedience.
I do not wish too go in details but I will include some Links from here you can try to click on it

For more details you have to Wikipedia, go to the link below(Sources).

MOTHER GOD 

Links stated in Christian Apologetic

http://www.experiencingwmscog.com/2014/10/17/according-to-the-korean-cult-experts-the-world-mission-society-church-of-god-is-a-cult/

Tunnel

Past 3 months, just trap into this hole of depression.
Desperately seeking the way out, but i couldn't, anxious heart weight a man down. 

Fear of futures grip my heart, lacks of security drives me around doing things that condition myself to feel safe. Fears over grips my heart and worries paralysed my mind, everyday seems to be mundane, all i hope is the struggle is over.

Well 4 month have passed, Freedom visited me, i went to Freedom Seminar at Kingdom City Church, during the worship service i felt the touch of God's love, his warm embrace envelope me, like the waves cover the shores.

As been set free from oppression, my heart felt the release but my mind still struggles with racing thoughts, i know God still haven't finnish with me. As many whys start appearing in my mind, i have started to doubts and the fears revisited me again.

It was Wednesday evening, after work i have dilemma of deciding whether to go for company's training or just return home. After consulting my mom i still not convince to make decision, my mind was having lot of what-if" .

A step of faith, 

I took a step of faith just pray and get myself moving to the training venue. While on the way to my company, my self consciousness begin to manifest, begin to project what may happens.  On the journey to my company i took a bus, while i was inside the bus, thinking to distract myself from the overwhelming sensation fear i have plug-on to some of my favourite Christian songs.

"I am no longer slave to fear, I am the child of God." This song moved my heart, God was speaking to me through this songs of deliverance. I wanna express my Thanks to you Father, thank you for delivering from all fears. 

Meditation of those songs have moved my heart, i have made a decision of never look back to the past and Move forward towards the goals he have put in my heart.

I am forever grateful, from that day till now my mind is constantly renew, and I am enjoying the fellowship of the holy spirit

Happiness is so Easy

Happiness is so easy.
A cup of thankfulness, some savour of love.
Back to my hometown Ipoh.
Things not going well, my uncle just passed away.
On the bright side, he inspired me to write a song, only manage to write a few line of melodies.
Back to hometown drank the coffee from Ipoh."The Famous Ipoh's white coffees" really lifted up my moods and bringing in the feeling of excitement. Caffeine works wonders in many times of our need.

Excitement of life and the hope of future have not left me. Joy of Christ flow through me.

Fruitful Year end Quarter 2011

Quarter of the year start busy in October , November and December .

Lots of performance are going on, Oh boy indeed I am living in an exciting moment. 

Orchestra performance in October was good, thank God we didn't screw up, last minute of 2 weeks practice does payoff. Most of all thanks to Miss Ang she is willing to be our Conductor in Last minute all else it will be screwed, our tempos are not synchronize. 

October's performance is done , The coming one will be Christmas the they want me to be part of the band for the Christmas Event. It is honor to Serve in Christian Fellowship. Hope that It will be a great Christmas Night. Lot of people will come to know Christ =) 

Seeds of prayer bring harvest of Soul

Seeing my friend being saved, it is an awesome feeling.

For months I have been praying for both of my friends' salvation

Finally, I have seen the fruits of salvation coming through their life.

Praise God, many times I try to invite them to those christian meeting or gathering , they just go it for the sake of going .

I may not be the one who harvest the plant or water, God's is the ultimate farmer , he water the seed with his words and God make eveything grows. I just have to presevere and continue to pray for those who haven't experience the Lord's Salvation .

Praise be to God , 2 Souls are saved. In the bible  it talks about when one soul is saved the whole Heaven is having a big banquet to celebrate their salvation. I pray that they will continue to grow Strong in jesus, deeply rooted and grounded with the love of Christ( Ephesian 3:17). I pray that they will be a strong witness and become a salt & light for JESUS CHRIST. I also pray that Christ may use us to the fullness as we offer our body as a living sacrifice to HIM , Glory to God Forever seated on the Throne!!!!

Dark Tunnel- Light at the end

There will always be a Darkest moment in everyone's Life.
I have just experience it and I have experienced the supernatural breakthrough from the Lord.
The Lord Lifted my spirit when I was oppressed by my circumstances. It makes me depend on Him totally, I grow stronger and understand the Lord and get closer to Him.
In the Darkest moment,
Fear over grip your heart,
Indecisive thought hit your mind,
Overwhelm by worries. accusation fire to you in all direction, who shall you seek refuge, who shall you find comfort, who will understand your situation?
Always remember you will get through to the end of tunnel and you will see light. Fear not The Lord is with you, and He goes before you.
No matter how deep or how dark the path ,God will see us through He will never leave you or forsake you. For if we died with Him, we shall also live with Him.If we are faithless, he will be faithful.
Because God cannot deny himself.  If we endure, we shall also reign with Him; If we deny Him, He also will deny us;
Even the youth shall faint and be weary,And the Young man shall fall.
But for those who wait upon the Lord , their strength will be renew,They Shall Mount up like eagles, They shall run and not weary, They shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:30-31)

Totally Change

Going through phases of change, It will happen and It gonna happen....

It will change my body ,spirit and soul.
Next semester, everything will change dramatic.......
Facebook will change,  I will change the blogspot layout, Change a new hand phone
Change a new email address.

Most important that I will go through that hardship,
I am not afraid, If the road is too dark I will close my eye and use my ear to listen, follow God's direction and walk.
My old self is dead, Living a new life......
I just give up my old Life at the Alter, fed up with the past.
Longing for a new beginning.
No longer that I who live but Christ who liveth in me .

I Live for You

Every breath I breathe For You.
I Live for you, Every step I take is moving towards you
Seeing Your Faithfulness Through the Season.
I've failed you, Yet You still Love me
You Never fail, you are a faithful God.
Your Love endures forever.
I will put my whole trust in you

No one like you ,
No one Loves me as much as you do
You Give your lives for me ,
I will Live for you to the Very End.

What LOVE Is LOVE not

Who really loves you ? Your family, Your friends, Your BFF( best friend forever) Your girlfriend/boyfriend....

How you define Love, You might have heard that love is blind , this is certainly wrong , love is not blind on the contrast lust is blind.

You might have heard,LOVE is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud

Love is never tired of waiting; love is kind; love has no envy; love has no high opinion of itself, love has no pride............ coded from 1 Corinthians 13:4 onward

The action of love is now described in these passage.

These are the qualities that need to be found in a relation whether Boyfriend-girlfriend relationship or Best friend or just normal friend.....

If these values that cannot be found in a relationship that you are in perhaps that person or individual is not worthy of you . If you have the real love in a relationship, you will have a long-term relationship. It is because Love never fail, Love does not take account of sin , love covers the multitude of sins.

In conclusion, when you Have Love , you have it all.

Maybe We should take time and evaluate ourselves , Words or our action are they are the fruits of Love ?

Pray to God , one day He will reveal the truths behind one person , so that you will not walk blindly when you are going to start a relationship or end relationship.

Someone told me that Ask God to Lead you to the right friend, even though you may though that now your friend are 'good'/'best' friend to you . It may not benefits you in a relation .

Friends may be the one who leads us to God, Friends can be the one who leads us astray.

MY Choice or HIS choice

Is hard to Choose a University or a college for further study......
Although I have make my decision upon where to proceed my study ......

But the word Uncertainties and Doubts keep playing in my mind, the words that spoken by people is resonating in my mind. They say Degree and Advance diploma is different , Degree is better than Advance diploma besides  the name and the Cost (Obviously) .

WHos voice should i listen to my heart telling me to go to KL and explore..... Kampar is becoming more like Ipoh but I wanna experience the KL life , My curiosity drives me ..... In KL there is a lot
Big mall, Mega Church , Wonderful people that I am going to meet and there are more challenges to face.

On  the other hand,  Living in Kampar is feel like living in my own comfort zone . Everything I have is near to me from logistic, family and friends and most important $$$. Kampar is no longer a town that fill with bulls, last time the population of bull and cow are more than human, Since the UTAR is built and open in 2007 the population of cow and bull have drops ....
Anyway,
 Everything I leave it for God, For His divine choice ..... waiting for a still small voice to aid me in decision making. Leave the rest of my story for the author of life