September 11th, We Never Forget

Today is Sep, 11th 2020.

I remember last time when I was young, joined the school trip.

As I recalled, while dining for breakfast saw the Sep 11, tragedy news LIVE. Back then was small don't really felt much. At first sight,

I thought was computer-animated couldn't be real then later aware that the news is real.

Life is short, Unpredictable... People come and Go, Appreciate them before they expired. Today, remind that those people were on the building would never know that morning was their last day on earth.

Revisit the Videos, seeing people rather jump than being burnt, Ashes and smoke filled the air, screams, and shout desperate ask for help.

This year 2020, I have lost many friends and acquaintance they died before their time, I believe in fated destiny, some are around my age, some your just 17,21 sad to see young people, teen, and young adults lost their life.

Final words, no one lives forever. Love them while they are alive. I am grateful to be alive and well will express my appreciation to all my friends and fans (hope they never found my blog).

Bros, memories with you will always in My Heart. I love you very much

Sincerely

Justin. 

Yes I am Back, as said Will be back

Was Hiatus since 2018, my recovery period after that accident/ trauma

In 2020, a challenging year

Glad to be Alive, A lot of younger Bros Have passed away :(

Many things, ups, and downs.

Recently Deciding whether to go Full into  Blogger or WordPress.

Most probably I will start more new projects new blogs in WordPress, As Blogger is since 2009, I have noticed a lot of changes a lot of young friends they passed away, went back their blog noticed some of them disappeared, try to find out why a lot of Blogspot account are gone without a trace.

In the end still, the same question should I further develop my BLOG in BLOGGER or WordPress?

Many Opinions, online could be misleading but roughly one has to test it out.

PS: wishing everyone stay healthy and happy always :)

April's Fool, Nobody's fool

I am April's fool.

Fool for believing you 2nd time , giving you 2nd chance to hurt me.

Never again I will let you to do this.

Hardening my heart preventing it be hurt again.

I am nobody's fool, giving you 2nd chance doesn't  mean I am stupid  just that cared too much about this relationship.

For now it doesn't  matter for me everyone is the same, people tend to be dishonest and double standards.

These are the attributes I hated the most.

Today is the saddest day, a mixtures of pain, anger and sadness.

I will grow out from this pain. 

Enough of explaining myself, no one hears everyone assuming and not asking, that's fine that is how the world 🌎 operates.

Feeling expressed here have no prejudice to anyone not any religion it is purely from my heart. Feel free to leave my page if you don't  really like an honest mistakes.

New Seasons, it hurts =) smile again

Thank you God.

Heartfelt.
The New Season.
Somehow felt that it is the time to move on again,
Gotta say goodbye to TOD.
Dr. Loh said was right.
Although it is hard, but i will endure it.

somehow I felt like leaving before i ever did.

What the hell have happened in 2014, 2015, 2016..

Waited till now, time of preparation is perfected, now time to get up and take actions

No Woman No Cry, Disagree

No woman No cry?
No woman, but
I have cried,
Wanna Cry
but no tears
such immense sadness
cannot be express by just tears and tantrum
Deep intense of dissatisfactions.

Regrets have a few,
Fear of future I have none,
Although the future seems unclear
I think worrying won't solve it
It will just make things worst.

Worrying and Fear have no grip from me,
but the some regrets and guilts of the past,
Keep on flashing back.


I have been strong for too long, sometime is okay to cry, but this time that kind of sadness cannot be cried out. My vocabulary, have become " I have should...." " what if " I gotta stop thinking else, overthinking could make me feel depress.

Okay for now I share until here, to be continued.....
I have promised I will write consistently even though it may be short.

Revisiting the past

Remembering the Past, This was Hill Citi College, A college nearby my House.

Most of my homegrown friend attended this college and graduated from it, what they never expected 

is this college, Wind up.

Alot of my friends are puzzled, some changed career some retake their syllabus in another Local university.

Last time remember My mom did nagged me, telling me why didn't I join this college it was affordable and near my house.

Thank God, I have made my decisions did not based on others judgments nor opinions.

I stood firm on the college that I have selected.

Until Now it still exist TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN COLLEGE & UNIVERSITY.

Hope all the best is yet to come, now in the midst of attending interviews.

NOVEMBER be nice to me 

Loneliness Versus Solitude

Language… has created the word ‘loneliness’ to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word ‘solitude’ to express the glory of being alone

What you think about Loneliness and solitude? Could you tell the difference?

Feel free to drop your comments below...

Lesson Learnt

Painful yet memorable Lesson, Life lesson.

I find it therapeutic expressing it in the Blog.

No point whining in Facebook, looking for approval, agreement or likes.

Yes indeed Mother Theresa, is right. Some people enter our life as Blessing, while some enter our life as lesson.

Yet a Painful lesson over the past quarter April, may, June.

I do not wanna Describe it in Details, but it helps me to learn that Human will be human,

Human are realistic, degree of realistic is determine by the degree of their selfishness.

Once a human know what they really want, they are realistic, its the matter of degrees of it.

After today I have decided to be more Realistic person, I will invest more time on myself to make myself more competitive.

Less time will be wasted on wrong people, at wrong places, I will not hesitate

to delete or block contacts.

Do what is necessary to redeem back the lost time. 

In the past alot of time wasted on the wrong people, promised myself will not let anyone waste my time, I will let time DID once after that BYE BYE .

Gotta repick myself up and clear myself from those messed up

Forgiveness is A Choice

It seems that I am not really a forgiving person...
I have said you can only DiD this once.
Many I friendship I have written off, i don't really care much....

Endure it Justin, Just a short while, pain is temporary, glory is forever...
The pain you gone through, the tough situation and the Hard people yo have met
Going through this develop patience, perseverance and endurance.

Have I not prayed to God to removed all these stings, wonder why don't GOD bring me to heaven
the moment I said the sinner's prayer?
Have you wonder why??
Have you ever question about it ?
As time goes by, I realized that we are called , chosen to be the generations that make a difference...
Be the Salt of the Earth and the Light of the World.

I chose to Forgive even though it is Hard, I choose to Obey your commandment because I love you
I will keep all your commandments because I love you.
Lord, I have prayed that never let my heart grow cold towards you and others.
There was a time, I was so badly wounded, I have chosen the road of rebellion, Walking a life of hatred, have Harden my heart so that I won't feel hurt when people try to hurt me.
No longer feel angry, sad nor anguish.....
That kind of emotion numbness have transformed me into a person I couldn't  understand,
Slowly the cloud of depression and the fog of fear cover my vision.
Realized the devil strategy to destroy a person, is through separation of between, God , Self and others. One who is not able relate themselves with others , God and even themselves.

Thankfully God have delivered me from these Depression and Fears, HIS perfect love cast out all fears...
Thank you God, your faithfulness never end despite me walk away, you still will woo me back with your everlasting love.
( Continue.....)

June's Blessing

Be it like or hate
well life still move on...
we can't hate and love together, yet love and hate relationship does exist in a human relationships

Well sorry guys and Girls, I have been away for a long time.
Quick updates:
Recently I have got a job in a local GYM, work as a personal trainer,

Grateful to have a manager that take good care of me, Unfortunately I have an abusive boss,
Verbally abusive, although have a handsome outlook, but when it comes to rage and anger,
He threw it all....
Look horrible when he pout, unleash out all the anger to my manager....
There is something good about him, he just very lenient when it comes to certain stuff,
however too lenient in managing his business, he took his employee for granted.
Salary likewise is little, the full maximum amount of job he demand to work from Monday to Saturday, sad to say i have realized, my Salary as personal coach is lower than the MCD workers, and people who in Starbucks is pay better than me.
Initially, joining this company is my goal to pursue what I am passion about, but in reality unfortunately this passion hardly sustain the lifestyle.

At first i thought of staying and continue my work as personal coach while i could do some part time on weekend to sustain my living cost, but i cannot continue, because there have been times where the boss delay the payment of my salary, the 3rd time tried to delay , I have request an advance payment instead, and then after he have paid me I left the job giving the excuse of further study.

In the midst of my trouble, met Jason, he introduced me to Public Mutual, Met Miss Wei Joo, her story truly inspired me to be a Unit Trust Consultant. Which inspired me to continue in what I am good at Business & Financial Planning. I also plan to take my Financial Paper

Indeed I am Grateful, for the good and bad, the high ad the lo that I have gone through... I believe all things work Good For those who Love HIM (GOD).

with a Grateful Heart,
Your beloved Son,

Are you Lost

Are you lost?
Lost in the wilderness?
Lost in the big Cities?
Concrete jungle....Surrounded with people yet Still feel lonely.
Ironically people who with a group of people, feel more lonely that people who are alone.
Funny think one can enjoy their time alone with themselves without being alone.

I have experienced this season of my life before,
Would like to share it next time in details,
those lifehacks tips I have found it useful.
Will share to you all in next round

Reflection - Year Quarter have passed

It has been awhile, after Chinese New Year I am Lazy to blog, 

Short updates here, 

A lot of things over my mind , my focus are blurred, losing the cutting edge

received a useful advice....

Got to have a laser light focus in the things we do.

We might have alot of talents,limited time so we need to prioritize which talents to develop

turn it into cutting-edge skill.

Focus on your strength that will have competitive edge towards your rival

Finally Destroy what may destroy you, it might be a bad habits or stinking attitude that require change.

A bad attitude is like a Flat tires, you can't go far in Life.

remain humble and steadfast in Love.

Searching MYSELF

As young writer
the constant struggle finding one's identity as a writer
Feel free to drop me Comments and Feedback.
I will work on the improvement after all I am Learning =)

If God is willing I wanna try to earn a living as a Writer.
Always like to try something New.
The most common ways to describe me
" Always Curious to learn, easily distracted"

I will Give you all the best, Sharing From Life experience and Insights.
Writing give me ways to express myself, since coming out from depression, Never wanna go back to that place anymore, will share more victory over defeated mindsets

Sincerely Justin

Malaysia Prime Minister

I feel ashamed what have happened over here in Malaysia.

I believe most of the People in Malaysia know what I am talking be it in Malaysia or Abroad.

Our PM's story, I cannot type here just Google Malaysia PM money scandal 2.6 billion.

Just about a month ago Happened a Peaceful rally Bersih 4.0

The Reason of this Peaceful Rally,

Hope that Malaysia Leader will have a Cleaner election

Freedom of Speech applied in.

Actually I am taking a risk In writing this blog,

If found by Government, I might be charge under seditious act.

Never the Less As Malaysian, Always keep Malaysia in Prayer.

I believe we are in God's hand and I believe we have to go through this dark age before entering to the light.

Whatever will be will be.

The future is within the hands of all fellow Malaysians

Keep our leaders in prayer, Pray for a Righteous leader.

Source: http://www.theguardian.com/world/2015/aug/21/malaysias-mahathir-calls-for-parliament-to-sack-prime-minister-najib-razak

http://time.com/4030815/1mdb-credit-suisse-hong-kong-malaysia-najib-razak/

http://topics.wsj.com/person/N/najib-razak/6471

http://www.wsj.com/articles/malaysia-braces-for-protests-against-prime-minister-najib-1440766294?tesla=y

Ain't Good, Life is Move On

Things are not going well this month of June, Business is going slow.

People I have asked for appointment do not wish to come out, I guess I have to endure with it, persevere and change the approach that I have used to meet them.

The month of July will be the month of redemption, I have got another offer letter from another company,  will be running 2 business simultaneously, both are from the same industry and hope I could gain as much experience with AIG. 

Guy who play musical Instrument are Cool right ? haha not talking about myself 

Goodnews During my down moments, I have reignite my passion

 towards music. 

I went back to college join the music composition societies and Music societies.

So good to be back and reconnect with People who loves music.

These Korean Drama about classical music in Pop culture it is inspiring

Here is the Link for Beethoven Virus for Pals from US 

Don't you agree girls on Violin are Sexy hahaha

My friend's Proposal

My friend Joel,
Some how he used to look like this....
Used to be skinny due to Herbal Life.
I called it HerbalLied.
Cause once you stop using it your body will accumulate fats at an accelerating speed...

Yeah back to the main topic where we used to be closed friends, until a maggot copy the content of my blog and shared it among 60 friends of a whtapps group. HolyCow!!

Anderson Wong, i will not forget what i did.
It is unpardonable, straight i removed you from all my social networks i guess you couldn't control information well, anything u can just call me instead.

Regrets

Regrets i have a few, today went bodybuilding competitions, aiks missed the photo taking session with my bro, feeling kinda shy, i hesitated to meet him for picture session. Kinda proud of him, never the less i tell myself never cry over spilled milk.

Next time be bold and do it, better making mistakes than regrets for not taking the opportunity when limited time is given.
Cheers.