Hello 2021 January and Feb

 Finally Back again was on Hiatus... It was a Crazy December 2020 the landlord surprise visitation, cut the story short he told me I have to evacuate the apartment fast, as known the house leader has failed to negotiate with the owner, then he just broke the 4 years contract our deposit forfeited, then i have to leave within few days.

Busy like a Bee

Was busy like a bee, looking for a new place to move and looking for new....and looking for new jobs and attended a few interviews. Thank God found a place without contract that means if i found new place i can just ditch my House leader.

January 2021,

Now New challenges arise, all the local businesses are slowing because of COVID19 and the Lockdown. Hope everything gets better, I have joined some Entrepreneur classes and Sidehustle Classes, but the problem is Always lack of budget, I cannot go ALL OUT.

VINCE tan Masterclass Charge very high,  Normally these webinars, They advertise their workshop online like Facebook and YouTubes, these are the commonplace where those stranded in.

Yes, things are not perfect as it Seen... This picture Illustrates all.  Tearful Eyes and Mouthful of Foams...

Hope Next month things will be better when I apply different strategies into the ball game of Life. 

After taking caffein mind are fulls of ideas, But I have to document it before it fades, don't have time to practice all in the same time, so gotta record it first ... Test it later. 

September 11th, We Never Forget

Today is Sep, 11th 2020.

I remember last time when I was young, joined the school trip.

As I recalled, while dining for breakfast saw the Sep 11, tragedy news LIVE. Back then was small don't really felt much. At first sight,

I thought was computer-animated couldn't be real then later aware that the news is real.

Life is short, Unpredictable... People come and Go, Appreciate them before they expired. Today, remind that those people were on the building would never know that morning was their last day on earth.

Revisit the Videos, seeing people rather jump than being burnt, Ashes and smoke filled the air, screams, and shout desperate ask for help.

This year 2020, I have lost many friends and acquaintance they died before their time, I believe in fated destiny, some are around my age, some your just 17,21 sad to see young people, teen, and young adults lost their life.

Final words, no one lives forever. Love them while they are alive. I am grateful to be alive and well will express my appreciation to all my friends and fans (hope they never found my blog).

Bros, memories with you will always in My Heart. I love you very much

Sincerely

Justin. 

Yes I am Back, as said Will be back

Was Hiatus since 2018, my recovery period after that accident/ trauma

In 2020, a challenging year

Glad to be Alive, A lot of younger Bros Have passed away :(

Many things, ups, and downs.

Recently Deciding whether to go Full into  Blogger or WordPress.

Most probably I will start more new projects new blogs in WordPress, As Blogger is since 2009, I have noticed a lot of changes a lot of young friends they passed away, went back their blog noticed some of them disappeared, try to find out why a lot of Blogspot account are gone without a trace.

In the end still, the same question should I further develop my BLOG in BLOGGER or WordPress?

Many Opinions, online could be misleading but roughly one has to test it out.

PS: wishing everyone stay healthy and happy always :)

Gamers always be gamer

Honestly speaking Gamers are the same
They blame people for everything but refuse to acknowledge their own faults
If you have a few gamer friends, I believe you would agree what I am saying.

It is always easy to blame, than taking responsibilities over the mess that you have created.

Anyway I have signed out from their accounts, I wash my hand cleaned from the basin.
I hold no accounts to their actions, neither wanna be part of the shit they are in....

April's Fool, Nobody's fool

I am April's fool.

Fool for believing you 2nd time , giving you 2nd chance to hurt me.

Never again I will let you to do this.

Hardening my heart preventing it be hurt again.

I am nobody's fool, giving you 2nd chance doesn't  mean I am stupid  just that cared too much about this relationship.

For now it doesn't  matter for me everyone is the same, people tend to be dishonest and double standards.

These are the attributes I hated the most.

Today is the saddest day, a mixtures of pain, anger and sadness.

I will grow out from this pain. 

Enough of explaining myself, no one hears everyone assuming and not asking, that's fine that is how the world 🌎 operates.

Feeling expressed here have no prejudice to anyone not any religion it is purely from my heart. Feel free to leave my page if you don't  really like an honest mistakes.

Delay No More, Take Charge your LIFE

Delay No More,

When Fear over gripped  you, everything seems overwhelming.

Paralyze by it, deadlines is nearing....
Yet the feel of losing control, the fear of making mistakes,
the fear of the unexpected outcome.

Perhaps one have set an unrealistic, expectation....
For me, Now and onward I shall not be Afraid of making Mistakes.

Tips
Take charge of your life again....

 Reorganized your life,

1. manage your time schedules well, set priorities, learn to say NO, safeguard your time
2. avoid MULTITASKING, one step at time.... Danger of multitasking, sometime one might get confused, much errors may arise, sometime tasks 
3. Plan ahead, And take Action. Planning without actions is dead, It is just building a sandcastle in your mind, and It will not be actualized. Plan and make simple steps reaching your small goals
4. Lastly Fear Not, Go ahead and try, If you fail try again, again until you succeed. Quitter never win, winner never quit.
5. Always add values into peoples life, always be there to help people around, make the earth a better place for your neighbor  if you find this article helps share to them.

No Woman No Cry, Disagree

No woman No cry?
No woman, but
I have cried,
Wanna Cry
but no tears
such immense sadness
cannot be express by just tears and tantrum
Deep intense of dissatisfactions.

Regrets have a few,
Fear of future I have none,
Although the future seems unclear
I think worrying won't solve it
It will just make things worst.

Worrying and Fear have no grip from me,
but the some regrets and guilts of the past,
Keep on flashing back.


I have been strong for too long, sometime is okay to cry, but this time that kind of sadness cannot be cried out. My vocabulary, have become " I have should...." " what if " I gotta stop thinking else, overthinking could make me feel depress.

Okay for now I share until here, to be continued.....
I have promised I will write consistently even though it may be short.

December again =)

Often heard,
December be kind to me , January be kind to me....

Very often have we think, have we be kind to ourself.
How we manage our time , relationship and family.

Think again in December, anything we have neglected....
haha this year I have survived, I almost died.
Thank God, help sent from various area.... when I felt life is slopping downward

Thank God, for the Mentors,
Thank God, for the prayers and supports.

I am Grateful for the Good and Bad Have happened,
God always provide a way for me ....
Ever faithful God

Happiness is Simple

Happiness is simple,

It could be sharing foods with people we love.

It could be sharing our most inner part 

For me Happiness is easy

Happiness having enough food,

A place to rest my head,

A bunch of positive supportive friends that you could call them

brother and sister in Christ.

A throwback that day I bought this affordable food, Rojak

Rojak, is the local Mixed tropical fruits with special sweet and spicy dressing.

If Oversea friend drop by Malaysia they must try this Malaysian Food.

Guess how much I paid for this Food?

It cost about RM5.50 portion is quite large, with alot of sauce

This Rojak hawker , he usually start selling from lunch break until 6pm.

His store is situated nearby Genting Kelang, Wet Market.

Feel free to drop Comments, recommendations or any Inquiries....

I will reply when available =) 

Thanks for reading

Confession of a HeartBroken

It sucks,

Even the person closest to you misunderstand you,

No matter how eager you to explains,

It is true what hurts the most are those that are close.

the misunderstanding keep on snow balling,

People do get tired, I am tired of this Relationship

I tell myself it is Over.

Game Over.

I am leaving, leaving you lonely.

Hardening my Heart 

so I would not be feeling any pains

some pain are worth taking, some are just a waste of time if we keep holding on.

Should I hold on or Give up?

Worth going through the pain again?

Honesty

this is lacking between us.

Whenever an question is asked, you will reply we with another questions.

For my part, I am holding myself ...

Why it is so hard for people to be honest.

Many Are Curious about what is happening

Only Few are truly care.

well I guess this is just reality of Life

I was hit Hard,

Now my life FUCKED

Pretty Fucked

I have wasted the whole year of 2016.

Lesson Learnt

Painful yet memorable Lesson, Life lesson.

I find it therapeutic expressing it in the Blog.

No point whining in Facebook, looking for approval, agreement or likes.

Yes indeed Mother Theresa, is right. Some people enter our life as Blessing, while some enter our life as lesson.

Yet a Painful lesson over the past quarter April, may, June.

I do not wanna Describe it in Details, but it helps me to learn that Human will be human,

Human are realistic, degree of realistic is determine by the degree of their selfishness.

Once a human know what they really want, they are realistic, its the matter of degrees of it.

After today I have decided to be more Realistic person, I will invest more time on myself to make myself more competitive.

Less time will be wasted on wrong people, at wrong places, I will not hesitate

to delete or block contacts.

Do what is necessary to redeem back the lost time. 

In the past alot of time wasted on the wrong people, promised myself will not let anyone waste my time, I will let time DID once after that BYE BYE .

Gotta repick myself up and clear myself from those messed up

Sleepless NIght

Well another Sleepless night.

As night comes people's mind are more active, according to a psychology journal that I have read.
Is it True?

Well I think it is true, according to the journal usual day we are so distracted by lot of stuffs , (need to be done)

As night arise,  we our to do list shorten, and our mind start thinking about past, present and future.
For me I took coffee, and my mind is still very sharp although the body is tired but the mind is spinning fast.

Learn to live at the moment, and do not let the worry of tomorrows nor regret of yesterday robs you of today's blessings. LIVE NOW, have to constantly remind myself.

For now
Goodnight
Nature's calling to bed.

Forgiveness is A Choice

It seems that I am not really a forgiving person...
I have said you can only DiD this once.
Many I friendship I have written off, i don't really care much....

Endure it Justin, Just a short while, pain is temporary, glory is forever...
The pain you gone through, the tough situation and the Hard people yo have met
Going through this develop patience, perseverance and endurance.

Have I not prayed to God to removed all these stings, wonder why don't GOD bring me to heaven
the moment I said the sinner's prayer?
Have you wonder why??
Have you ever question about it ?
As time goes by, I realized that we are called , chosen to be the generations that make a difference...
Be the Salt of the Earth and the Light of the World.

I chose to Forgive even though it is Hard, I choose to Obey your commandment because I love you
I will keep all your commandments because I love you.
Lord, I have prayed that never let my heart grow cold towards you and others.
There was a time, I was so badly wounded, I have chosen the road of rebellion, Walking a life of hatred, have Harden my heart so that I won't feel hurt when people try to hurt me.
No longer feel angry, sad nor anguish.....
That kind of emotion numbness have transformed me into a person I couldn't  understand,
Slowly the cloud of depression and the fog of fear cover my vision.
Realized the devil strategy to destroy a person, is through separation of between, God , Self and others. One who is not able relate themselves with others , God and even themselves.

Thankfully God have delivered me from these Depression and Fears, HIS perfect love cast out all fears...
Thank you God, your faithfulness never end despite me walk away, you still will woo me back with your everlasting love.
( Continue.....)

This is ME

Hi, everyone I am Justin,

I love Music, Classical music, Have been playing piano since 9 years old,

Later get in touch with Violin in my 3rd year of College, subsequently Cello as well because their from the same string family.

It has been sometime I have started blogging since 2008.

It is a good way to express myself, It is a good way to improve my language.

Ever since then, I could express myself better in English.

This is a Random sharing, I found this old picture taken after Performance in College.

Then i decided to write something short about myself.

Feel Free to Comment and Ask me something or Have any suggestions,topics that I could  cover =)

Lesson Learnt

Lesson Learnt

ouch I know it burns.
First I want to thank you, my ex-boss from Fitcore Fitness
Underpaid salary, long haul of work time from 10am to 12am,
I am paid for peanuts,
The major reason that I left the company because the delay payment of salary,
The Boss told me that usually there is a delay payment of salary caused by the Accountant,
resposibility have pushed aside to the accountant saying normally salary will be out on the 15th of every month.

I felt really angry, as I am expected to come on time for work, I also expect my employer would pay to me on time, unfortunately I felt that he did that intentionally, because for the first 2 month he delay our pay before in april and May,  he said on June onwards salary will be out on the 15th, I cannot accept it I decided to leave the company, Fitcore Fitness. For those who have been checking the company background , this is it , a brief info, this is a new company existed no longer than 3 years.

The thing I have discover while clearing the files, first most of the Ex- employees left , the managers and boss did not gave clear reasons why they left , I have realized the many employees left on the first quarter of the year 2016, probably due to the reasons where the boss he did not pay them well, long haul of working time...

 

 I gave my resignation letter on 3rd July, 2016, I couldn't take it anymore....

After spoken to a Servant of the Lord, she have prayed for me, I have received the boldness, The next day I spoken to my Manager of my resignation.
Initially I have promised to help him until Wednesday, then I have changed my mind, I have decided to state my last dy on Sunday instead, short pain is better than long suffering

Are you Lost

Are you lost?
Lost in the wilderness?
Lost in the big Cities?
Concrete jungle....Surrounded with people yet Still feel lonely.
Ironically people who with a group of people, feel more lonely that people who are alone.
Funny think one can enjoy their time alone with themselves without being alone.

I have experienced this season of my life before,
Would like to share it next time in details,
those lifehacks tips I have found it useful.
Will share to you all in next round

Second Quarter Challenge Overcoming Procrasination

Sometime when thing seems hard to overcome the problems that I faced daily.
There are times we don't really feel like doing it straightaway, we delay until we have no time to delay, we get into panic mode, working those stuff frantically...

Ever hope that this vicious cycle would stop, yeah sadly I am trapped in this infinite loop work delay because too hard later not enough time to fulfill it, might as well start early ignore about perfection...
Just Do It, Follow Nike's Motto....
When things happens believing you are capable of handling it.
Face your situation boldly and you will learn, If you try to avoid it simply you are try to avoid life....Your learning curve stop there.....
Always remind yourself thee is no Mistakes only feedback, Tell yourself if you fail, try again, try until you succeed.

Classic stories like Thomas Edison, How many failure and tries e go through before he find the right way to make bulb. If Thomas Edison he gave up on the 3rd attempt we will never have light bulb invention for today.
Bottomline as long we are determine, I believe eventually we will make it through.

Discovering your Passion in Writing

                                     
                                            "Finally Know what are the things I like to do.
                                         There are many things I wish to do but I didn't do."

As beginner you can see from my various post, still in the process of discovering myself.... what I really want to do, Although i have pretty much ideas.
Instead of siting there thinking and do nothing, I have decided " JUST DO IT" anyway.
Looking back my blog wasn't that user friendly, language wasn't that good and didn't really express myself well. I am happy what I am today atleast I am dare to type anything that would came across

my mind

As Quotes before the longest journey start with a Single steps. So I started my journey in 2010.

With join effort, some of the friends of mine the started well, but at time goes by they have nothing to write and share, thanks to Facebook.

I have realized writing blogs, short article is therapeutic.It is a time when One start to speak with themselves, think deeply, and express themselves through writing. As human beings I believe we all seek to be heard, impossible we express everything verbally to the same person we trust. The person probably be annoyed.

This Season I am going to do something very different, I would blog about photography, Cooking recipe, besides the shades of Life, Of course some Lifehack tips, various short stories, testimonies, family. Blogging

Final word, Guys and Girls out never afraid of mistakes, go ahead make some, learn from it, and try again until you learn from it. "Remember Only FEEDBACKS no Mistakes" . As long there is A lesson behind each mistakes. Keep trying to discover what U like and dislike. "Spent time with yourself" and Start blogging.

JJ Lin - Twilight (Official HD MV) Music sharing

JJ Lin , a talented musician artist. He composed many songs......

This is the current most outstanding song, meaningful lyrics and music.

I will try to cover those meaning in english( translated)

Malaysia Prime Minister

I feel ashamed what have happened over here in Malaysia.

I believe most of the People in Malaysia know what I am talking be it in Malaysia or Abroad.

Our PM's story, I cannot type here just Google Malaysia PM money scandal 2.6 billion.

Just about a month ago Happened a Peaceful rally Bersih 4.0

The Reason of this Peaceful Rally,

Hope that Malaysia Leader will have a Cleaner election

Freedom of Speech applied in.

Actually I am taking a risk In writing this blog,

If found by Government, I might be charge under seditious act.

Never the Less As Malaysian, Always keep Malaysia in Prayer.

I believe we are in God's hand and I believe we have to go through this dark age before entering to the light.

Whatever will be will be.

The future is within the hands of all fellow Malaysians

Keep our leaders in prayer, Pray for a Righteous leader.

Source: http://www.theguardian.com/world/2015/aug/21/malaysias-mahathir-calls-for-parliament-to-sack-prime-minister-najib-razak

http://time.com/4030815/1mdb-credit-suisse-hong-kong-malaysia-najib-razak/

http://topics.wsj.com/person/N/najib-razak/6471

http://www.wsj.com/articles/malaysia-braces-for-protests-against-prime-minister-najib-1440766294?tesla=y