Confession of a HeartBroken

It sucks,

Even the person closest to you misunderstand you,

No matter how eager you to explains,

It is true what hurts the most are those that are close.

the misunderstanding keep on snow balling,

People do get tired, I am tired of this Relationship

I tell myself it is Over.

Game Over.

I am leaving, leaving you lonely.

Hardening my Heart 

so I would not be feeling any pains

some pain are worth taking, some are just a waste of time if we keep holding on.

Should I hold on or Give up?

Worth going through the pain again?

Honesty

this is lacking between us.

Whenever an question is asked, you will reply we with another questions.

For my part, I am holding myself ...

Why it is so hard for people to be honest.

Many Are Curious about what is happening

Only Few are truly care.

well I guess this is just reality of Life

I was hit Hard,

Now my life FUCKED

Pretty Fucked

I have wasted the whole year of 2016.

SAD

I admit I feel Sad.

Couldn't deny it, would like to deny it.

Would like to bury those negatives feelings.

I guess I just release it in form of writing.

I felt people Kinda fake, Hypocrites.

The mouth is hot but the heart is not.

Insincerity really cuts and their smiles is razor blades.

Love to listen to sad songs, during these down seasons.

Enjoying the moments of sadness, betrayel , Loneliness, Misunderstandings.

Keep on telling myself to be strong no matter what, PAIN is temporary Glory is forever.

My Business is not doing good, weird I am not Worry, I lost My feeling....

I feel really bad, 

I hope this won't progress into Depression

I don't want the feeling of Killing myself again.

Unfriended my Close Friend

Your apathy doesn't get my sympathy
Lukewarmer Kill a Friendship

Kinda Awkward being with you
Feel like a stranger being with you
I couldn't stand to look into your face, could not look into your eyes
No longer can face you
Do not feel like starting conversation
because you are no longer you,
and I am no longer I,
We have changed from time to time,
we have changed from different direction,
We have been 4 years friend, close friend,
Although It is Sad, but I will set you apart.

It is painful, but I do not wish to prolong the suffering.
Short pain is better than Long suffering.



I have been suffer from your Apathy,
Long time before you have started relationship with your girlfriend
Things get more obvious when you are in girl-boy relationship.
It does take long for me to realize that It is one-sided frienship
Where I strive hard to maintain the frienship,
I've always been the one who initiate conversation,....etc
I felt I have been taken for granted in Many ways
I felt so drain out and tired from this kinda friendship
I have decided to put an end to this misery by cutting all the roots
Decided to leave you the way you are, Being with you is a WASTE OF TIME and LIFE


I woke up in April, Thank God.
God sent various people in this seasons


The Old season is coming to an End
I have NEW friends thank God
God speak to me through a Pastor's Sermon
Where he talk about, the difference between good friends and right friends.
A Good Friend is a friend is good for hangout whereas A right friend will built you up.
A right friend will be there to built your characters and bear your burdens.

I will Forgive all the things that you've done, but We will never be friend again.
Thank you for coming into my life as A LESSON

What LOVE Is LOVE not

Who really loves you ? Your family, Your friends, Your BFF( best friend forever) Your girlfriend/boyfriend....

How you define Love, You might have heard that love is blind , this is certainly wrong , love is not blind on the contrast lust is blind.

You might have heard,LOVE is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud

Love is never tired of waiting; love is kind; love has no envy; love has no high opinion of itself, love has no pride............ coded from 1 Corinthians 13:4 onward

The action of love is now described in these passage.

These are the qualities that need to be found in a relation whether Boyfriend-girlfriend relationship or Best friend or just normal friend.....

If these values that cannot be found in a relationship that you are in perhaps that person or individual is not worthy of you . If you have the real love in a relationship, you will have a long-term relationship. It is because Love never fail, Love does not take account of sin , love covers the multitude of sins.

In conclusion, when you Have Love , you have it all.

Maybe We should take time and evaluate ourselves , Words or our action are they are the fruits of Love ?

Pray to God , one day He will reveal the truths behind one person , so that you will not walk blindly when you are going to start a relationship or end relationship.

Someone told me that Ask God to Lead you to the right friend, even though you may though that now your friend are 'good'/'best' friend to you . It may not benefits you in a relation .

Friends may be the one who leads us to God, Friends can be the one who leads us astray.