Hello 2021 January and Feb

 Finally Back again was on Hiatus... It was a Crazy December 2020 the landlord surprise visitation, cut the story short he told me I have to evacuate the apartment fast, as known the house leader has failed to negotiate with the owner, then he just broke the 4 years contract our deposit forfeited, then i have to leave within few days.

Busy like a Bee

Was busy like a bee, looking for a new place to move and looking for new....and looking for new jobs and attended a few interviews. Thank God found a place without contract that means if i found new place i can just ditch my House leader.

January 2021,

Now New challenges arise, all the local businesses are slowing because of COVID19 and the Lockdown. Hope everything gets better, I have joined some Entrepreneur classes and Sidehustle Classes, but the problem is Always lack of budget, I cannot go ALL OUT.

VINCE tan Masterclass Charge very high,  Normally these webinars, They advertise their workshop online like Facebook and YouTubes, these are the commonplace where those stranded in.

Yes, things are not perfect as it Seen... This picture Illustrates all.  Tearful Eyes and Mouthful of Foams...

Hope Next month things will be better when I apply different strategies into the ball game of Life. 

After taking caffein mind are fulls of ideas, But I have to document it before it fades, don't have time to practice all in the same time, so gotta record it first ... Test it later. 

Be an Overcomer

Today is the today you have made I will rejoice and glad in it
.
Challenges face today all have been overcome.

First you have overcome your fear of making decision, on deciding which fund should I allocate for clients, fearing that I would make mistakes, I guess it progress along the way.

Well life is full of challenges,
Always have the mindset of I will go through it regardless of what.

Fallacy number 1, people always think that they are really ready then only take actions,
the fact that one is ready through the readiness of mind.

Always have the mindset I am ready to face anything, whatever will be will be....
Do not worry of the result being less desired or not so perfect. Perfectionism
is another rock thbat gonna hinder you from even start thinking, planning and executing it.
Defeating mindset will echo in your mind.

Today's lesson I learn to " Just Do it " try your best, it won't fall short too far from the set goal, so long you have done your best even though it is not 100%,  there is no Regrets.

Bye 2016

Bye 2016

Welcome 2017!!!

Say good bye to 2016

Looking forward for something new.


Life is not always ups, sometime down....

But think on the brighter side I wish all is well, hope for the best is yet to come.
2017, I will surrender my life to the almighty....
2016, I did it my way ended so bad, landed on wrong side, get hurts and wounds
Hopefully, all will be well again when i realigned the priorities of life.

It has been a rough years in 2016, I have learned many life lessons.



New Job is coming, New opportunity.....
Hope all the best, in 2017 in your life...

Will update more, what is going on and share more of my own personal thoughts and perspectives
Will be more expressive than last year....
Will be more noisy, more frequent post and updates.
Will be updating my blog more frequent
thank you my regular readers for your support.

 

Revisiting the past

Remembering the Past, This was Hill Citi College, A college nearby my House.

Most of my homegrown friend attended this college and graduated from it, what they never expected 

is this college, Wind up.

Alot of my friends are puzzled, some changed career some retake their syllabus in another Local university.

Last time remember My mom did nagged me, telling me why didn't I join this college it was affordable and near my house.

Thank God, I have made my decisions did not based on others judgments nor opinions.

I stood firm on the college that I have selected.

Until Now it still exist TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN COLLEGE & UNIVERSITY.

Hope all the best is yet to come, now in the midst of attending interviews.

NOVEMBER be nice to me 

Short Updates

Short Updates

Nothing much or less i have expect in Life?
Except to be Happy.
There are times I hope that shouldn't be born.

Why I am born in this Family ?
Most of the time I have questioned my existence
Sad.
Am I Proud to be the member of their family? No


Born in a Family full of strive.
I believe Most people are not Proud of their Dad. Am I... NO, not proud of my Dad
Most of the children do not have good relationship with dad.
I used to have hope looking forward for father's love care and support...
Until the day that was hurt so badly, I told myself enough is enough ...
I do not want to get hurt anymore, that was the last phrase I told him
I would not talk to him until his death.
Even till his death I don't feel remorse nor regret.
It is Him who taken me for granted not me.
Always I am the one who is reaching out until I get tired and sick of those attitude.
I believe LOVE toward him has grow cold.

Now, Is my Mom's turn, felt like thing not going better......

Hope as time goes by everything will tilt to the positive side

New Season of Life

Happy =)
A short updates, what is my life's on going ....
Ushering the New Season of Life is coming, gotta keep calm, but I am super exciting about it.
Alot of prayers and preparation for that ....

Recently received some calls and attended a few interviews.

Hope that I will able to get in Marcus Evan company, so far the best interview I ever had,
I have a meaningful chat with the manager, if I am successful will make it to next round.

Lot of experience gained through meeting alot of seniors in the business arena.
Heart is full of gratefulness, hope i will have a great start.

Lesson Learnt

Painful yet memorable Lesson, Life lesson.

I find it therapeutic expressing it in the Blog.

No point whining in Facebook, looking for approval, agreement or likes.

Yes indeed Mother Theresa, is right. Some people enter our life as Blessing, while some enter our life as lesson.

Yet a Painful lesson over the past quarter April, may, June.

I do not wanna Describe it in Details, but it helps me to learn that Human will be human,

Human are realistic, degree of realistic is determine by the degree of their selfishness.

Once a human know what they really want, they are realistic, its the matter of degrees of it.

After today I have decided to be more Realistic person, I will invest more time on myself to make myself more competitive.

Less time will be wasted on wrong people, at wrong places, I will not hesitate

to delete or block contacts.

Do what is necessary to redeem back the lost time. 

In the past alot of time wasted on the wrong people, promised myself will not let anyone waste my time, I will let time DID once after that BYE BYE .

Gotta repick myself up and clear myself from those messed up

Forgiveness is A Choice

It seems that I am not really a forgiving person...
I have said you can only DiD this once.
Many I friendship I have written off, i don't really care much....

Endure it Justin, Just a short while, pain is temporary, glory is forever...
The pain you gone through, the tough situation and the Hard people yo have met
Going through this develop patience, perseverance and endurance.

Have I not prayed to God to removed all these stings, wonder why don't GOD bring me to heaven
the moment I said the sinner's prayer?
Have you wonder why??
Have you ever question about it ?
As time goes by, I realized that we are called , chosen to be the generations that make a difference...
Be the Salt of the Earth and the Light of the World.

I chose to Forgive even though it is Hard, I choose to Obey your commandment because I love you
I will keep all your commandments because I love you.
Lord, I have prayed that never let my heart grow cold towards you and others.
There was a time, I was so badly wounded, I have chosen the road of rebellion, Walking a life of hatred, have Harden my heart so that I won't feel hurt when people try to hurt me.
No longer feel angry, sad nor anguish.....
That kind of emotion numbness have transformed me into a person I couldn't  understand,
Slowly the cloud of depression and the fog of fear cover my vision.
Realized the devil strategy to destroy a person, is through separation of between, God , Self and others. One who is not able relate themselves with others , God and even themselves.

Thankfully God have delivered me from these Depression and Fears, HIS perfect love cast out all fears...
Thank you God, your faithfulness never end despite me walk away, you still will woo me back with your everlasting love.
( Continue.....)

Lesson Learnt

Lesson Learnt

ouch I know it burns.
First I want to thank you, my ex-boss from Fitcore Fitness
Underpaid salary, long haul of work time from 10am to 12am,
I am paid for peanuts,
The major reason that I left the company because the delay payment of salary,
The Boss told me that usually there is a delay payment of salary caused by the Accountant,
resposibility have pushed aside to the accountant saying normally salary will be out on the 15th of every month.

I felt really angry, as I am expected to come on time for work, I also expect my employer would pay to me on time, unfortunately I felt that he did that intentionally, because for the first 2 month he delay our pay before in april and May,  he said on June onwards salary will be out on the 15th, I cannot accept it I decided to leave the company, Fitcore Fitness. For those who have been checking the company background , this is it , a brief info, this is a new company existed no longer than 3 years.

The thing I have discover while clearing the files, first most of the Ex- employees left , the managers and boss did not gave clear reasons why they left , I have realized the many employees left on the first quarter of the year 2016, probably due to the reasons where the boss he did not pay them well, long haul of working time...

 

 I gave my resignation letter on 3rd July, 2016, I couldn't take it anymore....

After spoken to a Servant of the Lord, she have prayed for me, I have received the boldness, The next day I spoken to my Manager of my resignation.
Initially I have promised to help him until Wednesday, then I have changed my mind, I have decided to state my last dy on Sunday instead, short pain is better than long suffering

Discovering your Passion in Writing

                                     
                                            "Finally Know what are the things I like to do.
                                         There are many things I wish to do but I didn't do."

As beginner you can see from my various post, still in the process of discovering myself.... what I really want to do, Although i have pretty much ideas.
Instead of siting there thinking and do nothing, I have decided " JUST DO IT" anyway.
Looking back my blog wasn't that user friendly, language wasn't that good and didn't really express myself well. I am happy what I am today atleast I am dare to type anything that would came across

my mind

As Quotes before the longest journey start with a Single steps. So I started my journey in 2010.

With join effort, some of the friends of mine the started well, but at time goes by they have nothing to write and share, thanks to Facebook.

I have realized writing blogs, short article is therapeutic.It is a time when One start to speak with themselves, think deeply, and express themselves through writing. As human beings I believe we all seek to be heard, impossible we express everything verbally to the same person we trust. The person probably be annoyed.

This Season I am going to do something very different, I would blog about photography, Cooking recipe, besides the shades of Life, Of course some Lifehack tips, various short stories, testimonies, family. Blogging

Final word, Guys and Girls out never afraid of mistakes, go ahead make some, learn from it, and try again until you learn from it. "Remember Only FEEDBACKS no Mistakes" . As long there is A lesson behind each mistakes. Keep trying to discover what U like and dislike. "Spent time with yourself" and Start blogging.

Searching MYSELF

As young writer
the constant struggle finding one's identity as a writer
Feel free to drop me Comments and Feedback.
I will work on the improvement after all I am Learning =)

If God is willing I wanna try to earn a living as a Writer.
Always like to try something New.
The most common ways to describe me
" Always Curious to learn, easily distracted"

I will Give you all the best, Sharing From Life experience and Insights.
Writing give me ways to express myself, since coming out from depression, Never wanna go back to that place anymore, will share more victory over defeated mindsets

Sincerely Justin

Ain't Good, Life is Move On

Things are not going well this month of June, Business is going slow.

People I have asked for appointment do not wish to come out, I guess I have to endure with it, persevere and change the approach that I have used to meet them.

The month of July will be the month of redemption, I have got another offer letter from another company,  will be running 2 business simultaneously, both are from the same industry and hope I could gain as much experience with AIG. 

Guy who play musical Instrument are Cool right ? haha not talking about myself 

Goodnews During my down moments, I have reignite my passion

 towards music. 

I went back to college join the music composition societies and Music societies.

So good to be back and reconnect with People who loves music.

These Korean Drama about classical music in Pop culture it is inspiring

Here is the Link for Beethoven Virus for Pals from US 

Don't you agree girls on Violin are Sexy hahaha

SAD

I admit I feel Sad.

Couldn't deny it, would like to deny it.

Would like to bury those negatives feelings.

I guess I just release it in form of writing.

I felt people Kinda fake, Hypocrites.

The mouth is hot but the heart is not.

Insincerity really cuts and their smiles is razor blades.

Love to listen to sad songs, during these down seasons.

Enjoying the moments of sadness, betrayel , Loneliness, Misunderstandings.

Keep on telling myself to be strong no matter what, PAIN is temporary Glory is forever.

My Business is not doing good, weird I am not Worry, I lost My feeling....

I feel really bad, 

I hope this won't progress into Depression

I don't want the feeling of Killing myself again.

Tunnel

Past 3 months, just trap into this hole of depression.
Desperately seeking the way out, but i couldn't, anxious heart weight a man down. 

Fear of futures grip my heart, lacks of security drives me around doing things that condition myself to feel safe. Fears over grips my heart and worries paralysed my mind, everyday seems to be mundane, all i hope is the struggle is over.

Well 4 month have passed, Freedom visited me, i went to Freedom Seminar at Kingdom City Church, during the worship service i felt the touch of God's love, his warm embrace envelope me, like the waves cover the shores.

As been set free from oppression, my heart felt the release but my mind still struggles with racing thoughts, i know God still haven't finnish with me. As many whys start appearing in my mind, i have started to doubts and the fears revisited me again.

It was Wednesday evening, after work i have dilemma of deciding whether to go for company's training or just return home. After consulting my mom i still not convince to make decision, my mind was having lot of what-if" .

A step of faith, 

I took a step of faith just pray and get myself moving to the training venue. While on the way to my company, my self consciousness begin to manifest, begin to project what may happens.  On the journey to my company i took a bus, while i was inside the bus, thinking to distract myself from the overwhelming sensation fear i have plug-on to some of my favourite Christian songs.

"I am no longer slave to fear, I am the child of God." This song moved my heart, God was speaking to me through this songs of deliverance. I wanna express my Thanks to you Father, thank you for delivering from all fears. 

Meditation of those songs have moved my heart, i have made a decision of never look back to the past and Move forward towards the goals he have put in my heart.

I am forever grateful, from that day till now my mind is constantly renew, and I am enjoying the fellowship of the holy spirit

Friends of Benefits

Today what i wrote I believe everyone will came across this.
Just an experience wanna share,would not want it be buried in the heart.


Friends of benefit
The moment I get the call/ message from them
My mind will tell me the next thing will be,  'Justin I need a favor'
In times of trouble they will find you for refuge,
In good times they will disappear, the cycle will repeat after they get what they want.
I always wanna be there with them whether it is the good time or the bad time.

Reviving The dead blogs

Revive the Dead blog,

Traffics dropping,

Readers leaving.... why

When you stop writing... commenting...... thinking

2012 gonna end soon. Yet I have procrastinate a lot.

Take time and ponder:

Time to take back the turf, defend my time.

Learn to say No.

Spend time with your love ones, they deserve it.

Reconnect back the lost relationship.

Cherish your family members,

Live today as if your last day,Live life to its fullness 

Don't worry be Happy.

Let God, Let go.

Time and tides wait for no man

Heard of Time and tides wait for no man?

Yes, but we never take it to the heart.

Realize that time is short when, things start changing 

Death of a friends or family, awaken us from the slumber.

Feeling of grief causes us to ponder,

Questions of life and its progress keep on playing in my mind.

Friendship will change through time, it doesn't matter how close is the proximity.

trials and testing will prove whether the friendship is worthy.

Heard of what you reap is what you sow,

Or what you sow is what you reap;

Relationship sometime doesn't work that way,

No matter how much love that is pour out.

when It is cherrish, Is like a rose trample on the ground.

Love pour out, unless one who received it will fall on the ground