Lesson Learnt

Painful yet memorable Lesson, Life lesson.

I find it therapeutic expressing it in the Blog.

No point whining in Facebook, looking for approval, agreement or likes.

Yes indeed Mother Theresa, is right. Some people enter our life as Blessing, while some enter our life as lesson.

Yet a Painful lesson over the past quarter April, may, June.

I do not wanna Describe it in Details, but it helps me to learn that Human will be human,

Human are realistic, degree of realistic is determine by the degree of their selfishness.

Once a human know what they really want, they are realistic, its the matter of degrees of it.

After today I have decided to be more Realistic person, I will invest more time on myself to make myself more competitive.

Less time will be wasted on wrong people, at wrong places, I will not hesitate

to delete or block contacts.

Do what is necessary to redeem back the lost time. 

In the past alot of time wasted on the wrong people, promised myself will not let anyone waste my time, I will let time DID once after that BYE BYE .

Gotta repick myself up and clear myself from those messed up

She have Changed

Yesterday Sucks I feel like Dying, all the fractions of the past and present intertwine..

Unexplained Sadness keep dwelling for days and weeks

But

No worry I am still strong,

No matter how hard I will never took my own life

everything used to be.....

Now every sentence start with this word

"Used to be..."

People changes whether you can accept it or not,

It is a harsh fact and a lot of truths within.

Whether they grow together or they growth apart.

Well it depends how is the communication.

People grow cold or they grow warmer, this is how friendships grows and Family ties...

Some have blood ties and they thought because they have bloodties they need not to be constantly communicate effectively, which lead to many misunderstanding and even breaking in the family.

People hate each others, People no longer wanna talk to each other.

This is how i felt constant frustration in communication which caused me not to speak at all during this festive season of Chinese New Year.

Didn't stop me anyway, finally I have learnt to shut up and react less, yeah I admit it takes a lot of patience and handwork.

Fear and Anger has it place in me, still along way to go...

Today my Eldest sister have tasted my wrath, I have just scolded her violently with all the harsh words propelled like rockets and Flame

Well this Chinese New Year I have a few resolutions which I have promised myself, not to take things so personal in friendship, let it be for Relationship that I cannot keep, I will not sustain but abstain from it. I have decided long ago, but dare not take action. Let me face every obstacles with boldness.

Dear God, gimme strength and wisdom to overcome all the obstacles, 

6th Feb 2016.... vision embedded,

NEW YEAR 2016

New Year 2016

New Beginning,
New Seasons
New Changes,
Change become the antique.

Mother Therasa Once Said,
 ' Some people come into our life as blessing some come into our lives as lessons'
I have learned alot thank God.
Scammers and Real Friends help me learn what is the realistic life


Just today my roommate have spoken to a few of my other housemates,
He refuse to let us the roommates to know what actually happened
I do not know what is the new conspiracy is this.
For now he act like leaders of the room that is pact with the leader of the house.

He keep spreading the news that does not allow us(roommates) to know.
I do not know what but I surrender all to YOU LORD JESUS.
Believing NO weapon form against me will prosper.
All things work well for those who LOVE HIM (JESUS)


I take RISK again, indeed i trust in you LORD. This year 2016 make it a different year.
In Faith I believe I will archieved this year GOALS.
I will take on 2 jobs. One it will be a Sales Executive job the other will be Financial Consultant, working day and night. Lifestyle gonna be change time to be serious with my own careers wake up Justin You are 26 years old. It is time to give your all, I am ALL IN, full gear

Liar

If u all came across him don't panic, just remain calm and don't believe any word spoken by him. Insincerity and lack of genuine

SAD

I admit I feel Sad.

Couldn't deny it, would like to deny it.

Would like to bury those negatives feelings.

I guess I just release it in form of writing.

I felt people Kinda fake, Hypocrites.

The mouth is hot but the heart is not.

Insincerity really cuts and their smiles is razor blades.

Love to listen to sad songs, during these down seasons.

Enjoying the moments of sadness, betrayel , Loneliness, Misunderstandings.

Keep on telling myself to be strong no matter what, PAIN is temporary Glory is forever.

My Business is not doing good, weird I am not Worry, I lost My feeling....

I feel really bad, 

I hope this won't progress into Depression

I don't want the feeling of Killing myself again.

My friend's Proposal

My friend Joel,
Some how he used to look like this....
Used to be skinny due to Herbal Life.
I called it HerbalLied.
Cause once you stop using it your body will accumulate fats at an accelerating speed...

Yeah back to the main topic where we used to be closed friends, until a maggot copy the content of my blog and shared it among 60 friends of a whtapps group. HolyCow!!

Anderson Wong, i will not forget what i did.
It is unpardonable, straight i removed you from all my social networks i guess you couldn't control information well, anything u can just call me instead.

Best Friend Forever? ?

Best friend forever or best foe forever?
Used to have a close friend, He is my roommate too.
Remember those were the days that we could joke and laugh together. We were that innocent and playful.
We could share things transparently and crack into joke easily.
Moments we have is priceliess, really cherish the frienship I had.
I always be happy that I could be  blessing to him. All the room house chores are done by me from washing the toilet to cleaning his bedsheets, clothes, ....etc.
Things starting to change after his industrial training he tend to be more passive than last time.
Changes even become more drastic in 2013, he started to display more changes in attitudes and behavior.

I hope that I can save this friendship, he seems to be amiable, Not really care...
Even his greeting become "robotic". Words of "thank you" become rigid and structural. It really hv become a duty to him to respond towards me. I don't really feel his sincerity.
I did not expect him to repay me.
All I require is he spend some time with me and have an honest conversation.

Did I did something wrong?
Am I treating Him too good?
Izzit worth to continue to keep this friendship or I just forget him and move on?

It is a Blessing that he come to my life or a Lesson? I hope that we will continue to become good  friend,  maybe a better friend in time to come