September 11th, We Never Forget

Today is Sep, 11th 2020.

I remember last time when I was young, joined the school trip.

As I recalled, while dining for breakfast saw the Sep 11, tragedy news LIVE. Back then was small don't really felt much. At first sight,

I thought was computer-animated couldn't be real then later aware that the news is real.

Life is short, Unpredictable... People come and Go, Appreciate them before they expired. Today, remind that those people were on the building would never know that morning was their last day on earth.

Revisit the Videos, seeing people rather jump than being burnt, Ashes and smoke filled the air, screams, and shout desperate ask for help.

This year 2020, I have lost many friends and acquaintance they died before their time, I believe in fated destiny, some are around my age, some your just 17,21 sad to see young people, teen, and young adults lost their life.

Final words, no one lives forever. Love them while they are alive. I am grateful to be alive and well will express my appreciation to all my friends and fans (hope they never found my blog).

Bros, memories with you will always in My Heart. I love you very much

Sincerely

Justin. 

Confession of a HeartBroken

It sucks,

Even the person closest to you misunderstand you,

No matter how eager you to explains,

It is true what hurts the most are those that are close.

the misunderstanding keep on snow balling,

People do get tired, I am tired of this Relationship

I tell myself it is Over.

Game Over.

I am leaving, leaving you lonely.

Hardening my Heart 

so I would not be feeling any pains

some pain are worth taking, some are just a waste of time if we keep holding on.

Should I hold on or Give up?

Worth going through the pain again?

Honesty

this is lacking between us.

Whenever an question is asked, you will reply we with another questions.

For my part, I am holding myself ...

Why it is so hard for people to be honest.

Many Are Curious about what is happening

Only Few are truly care.

well I guess this is just reality of Life

I was hit Hard,

Now my life FUCKED

Pretty Fucked

I have wasted the whole year of 2016.

Sleepless NIght

Well another Sleepless night.

As night comes people's mind are more active, according to a psychology journal that I have read.
Is it True?

Well I think it is true, according to the journal usual day we are so distracted by lot of stuffs , (need to be done)

As night arise,  we our to do list shorten, and our mind start thinking about past, present and future.
For me I took coffee, and my mind is still very sharp although the body is tired but the mind is spinning fast.

Learn to live at the moment, and do not let the worry of tomorrows nor regret of yesterday robs you of today's blessings. LIVE NOW, have to constantly remind myself.

For now
Goodnight
Nature's calling to bed.

No matter what He Did

No matter what you do is positive or negative there will be bound with haters.
He who hates is not from God.
Not to mentioned is Dislike are same as Hatred.
Yeah this brother in Christ i felt that he dislike me in th beginning.
Although at first meet he have the smiley face. As time goes by i have realised those were part of his techniques.
He once told me that if " u manage to make a man smile u will stripe of his armor, if you manage to make him laugh u will strip him naked".
Just recently i realised that he rather to get insurance from the bank than me. Ounch i admit it hurts abit cause since last time he once said that Life Insurance is bullshit he doesn't believe in it and yet now he bought it from bank.
Previously have proposed wanna do financial analysis on his behalf but he silently object.

Atleast now u see his true colour no more hiding in the shadow, once work with his dad before. Thank God for the truesight abilities to see through all things with my Visual Prowess.

I do not know why he treated me as such? Envy? Jealousy? He do not want me to be succesful? Probably! !
I just commit him to God , i dont care.... haha
Whether he have been naughty or nice

My friend's Proposal

My friend Joel,
Some how he used to look like this....
Used to be skinny due to Herbal Life.
I called it HerbalLied.
Cause once you stop using it your body will accumulate fats at an accelerating speed...

Yeah back to the main topic where we used to be closed friends, until a maggot copy the content of my blog and shared it among 60 friends of a whtapps group. HolyCow!!

Anderson Wong, i will not forget what i did.
It is unpardonable, straight i removed you from all my social networks i guess you couldn't control information well, anything u can just call me instead.

UPDATES

It has been awhile bloggers, since my last update

Life was hard for me, 

went through the tunnel of Darkness.

Now I am in the season of blooming, came out from darkness.

I have started to appreciate the light more.

Forsake my past and move on to the future,

Remove what doesn't belongs to God,

I have decided never to be under the yoke of slavery.

it is a constant struggles where I couldn't let my bros and Sister

know about it.

I believe I have to face the Devil by my own self,

Whoever is reading this I don't care, I am not afraid being stalk

If you wish to know me personally I am always welcome you/

It will be the time where I let the cat out of the bag.

My heart is moved but My mind is denying it.

Is this Love, Lust or another kinda of feelings.

Feelings need to be expressed cannot be denied.

Time to move on ....

It has been a long time ....

I have been moving house since December 2014, I have moved again on May 2015.

I will move house again after I have obtained My Sales TARGET.

It will time of joy and Travel, enjoy the fruits of my hardwork.

Regrets

Regrets i have a few, today went bodybuilding competitions, aiks missed the photo taking session with my bro, feeling kinda shy, i hesitated to meet him for picture session. Kinda proud of him, never the less i tell myself never cry over spilled milk.

Next time be bold and do it, better making mistakes than regrets for not taking the opportunity when limited time is given.
Cheers.

Tunnel

Past 3 months, just trap into this hole of depression.
Desperately seeking the way out, but i couldn't, anxious heart weight a man down. 

Fear of futures grip my heart, lacks of security drives me around doing things that condition myself to feel safe. Fears over grips my heart and worries paralysed my mind, everyday seems to be mundane, all i hope is the struggle is over.

Well 4 month have passed, Freedom visited me, i went to Freedom Seminar at Kingdom City Church, during the worship service i felt the touch of God's love, his warm embrace envelope me, like the waves cover the shores.

As been set free from oppression, my heart felt the release but my mind still struggles with racing thoughts, i know God still haven't finnish with me. As many whys start appearing in my mind, i have started to doubts and the fears revisited me again.

It was Wednesday evening, after work i have dilemma of deciding whether to go for company's training or just return home. After consulting my mom i still not convince to make decision, my mind was having lot of what-if" .

A step of faith, 

I took a step of faith just pray and get myself moving to the training venue. While on the way to my company, my self consciousness begin to manifest, begin to project what may happens.  On the journey to my company i took a bus, while i was inside the bus, thinking to distract myself from the overwhelming sensation fear i have plug-on to some of my favourite Christian songs.

"I am no longer slave to fear, I am the child of God." This song moved my heart, God was speaking to me through this songs of deliverance. I wanna express my Thanks to you Father, thank you for delivering from all fears. 

Meditation of those songs have moved my heart, i have made a decision of never look back to the past and Move forward towards the goals he have put in my heart.

I am forever grateful, from that day till now my mind is constantly renew, and I am enjoying the fellowship of the holy spirit

Friends of Benefits

Today what i wrote I believe everyone will came across this.
Just an experience wanna share,would not want it be buried in the heart.


Friends of benefit
The moment I get the call/ message from them
My mind will tell me the next thing will be,  'Justin I need a favor'
In times of trouble they will find you for refuge,
In good times they will disappear, the cycle will repeat after they get what they want.
I always wanna be there with them whether it is the good time or the bad time.

Miss that common Beautiful Place

This is rice field captured in Bukit Mertajam, Penang

The Common beautiful place, really miss that is the place I don't have to worry tomorrow and yesterday. Just live at the present time.

Sorry people have been Hiatus for long time,

Busy about this new job and Study as well, Oh God hard to balance between work and study.

Well here some short updates

Curse or Blessing

Met new housemates initially they are friendly as time goes by they become arctic cold towards me.

Problem from me or them,

remains a Myths

A

Myths

That all of us don't wanna talk about it.

problems remain unsolved they wish to resent on me and I do not wanna reconcile. 

Friend or Foe

Come to me when you have problems, expecting solutions

I am never a friend that could be there on your rainy day and sunny day.

Hurt will always be there when you treated someone as friend but they never treated you as one.

Changes

Changes does happen in any relationship, either you are closer with that person or further away till there is no points of return.

Recently just another Close Friend I have He choose to excommunicate with me,

For me is OK, He is a jerk no longer need to stay in touch with him.

Fine just keep him as my Facebook friend

  

Beautiful flowers planted by my mom.

Appreciate the common beautiful and Simple things what God have for us

The Highway towards penang Island, Adventurous moments

I love chauffeuring around the street, looking at the sunshine, 

Happiness is so simple.

This is the from the paddy rice field, Love it.

Happiness is so simple,

Great fun in harvesting plants you never sow at all.

Times

In moment like this ....
U started to think about Life.
The junction where I Have chosen.
The career that I have laid down.

Time to think again.
Time to review where am I heading.
Time management is a failure for me.
Desperately need help.

Bless me in this Journey Oh God.
Bless me in thy Glory.
Bless for a century, I am not greedy just ambitious.

Things have been crazy lately.
Things are disorganised.
People are crazy, crazy people are everywhere.

..... but I will survive

Sky is the Limit

Sky is the limit and how high shall I climb.
No boundaries, climb as high as I want.
Many people, friends they are complacent of their current ground. They wish to remain there, they are not willing to take risk.
In their career, literally they are sustaining their income and knowledge.
The path of greater height may be a lonely path, but I am willing to soar for greater heights I wanna be a trailbrazer, I wanna be someone to make a different in the society. Someone who add values to improve the society.
Leaving signboards of life for those who are behind me.
The higher the ladder u climb the less people will wanna follow you, ye I shall not be afraid the Lord is my light and Salvation who is holding my right hand.
Prophesies that have been prophesied over me is fulfilling one by one.
Greater destiny for me to be the end time Joseph, who will bless with wealth as much as Solomon, so that the people around me will be blessed.

Bless me Lord so I could be a great blessing to my neighbour as well as to the society. Grant me supernatural davor and wisdom to execute your divine plan for me.

Best Friend Forever? ?

Best friend forever or best foe forever?
Used to have a close friend, He is my roommate too.
Remember those were the days that we could joke and laugh together. We were that innocent and playful.
We could share things transparently and crack into joke easily.
Moments we have is priceliess, really cherish the frienship I had.
I always be happy that I could be  blessing to him. All the room house chores are done by me from washing the toilet to cleaning his bedsheets, clothes, ....etc.
Things starting to change after his industrial training he tend to be more passive than last time.
Changes even become more drastic in 2013, he started to display more changes in attitudes and behavior.

I hope that I can save this friendship, he seems to be amiable, Not really care...
Even his greeting become "robotic". Words of "thank you" become rigid and structural. It really hv become a duty to him to respond towards me. I don't really feel his sincerity.
I did not expect him to repay me.
All I require is he spend some time with me and have an honest conversation.

Did I did something wrong?
Am I treating Him too good?
Izzit worth to continue to keep this friendship or I just forget him and move on?

It is a Blessing that he come to my life or a Lesson? I hope that we will continue to become good  friend,  maybe a better friend in time to come

Reviving The dead blogs

Revive the Dead blog,

Traffics dropping,

Readers leaving.... why

When you stop writing... commenting...... thinking

2012 gonna end soon. Yet I have procrastinate a lot.

Take time and ponder:

Time to take back the turf, defend my time.

Learn to say No.

Spend time with your love ones, they deserve it.

Reconnect back the lost relationship.

Cherish your family members,

Live today as if your last day,Live life to its fullness 

Don't worry be Happy.

Let God, Let go.

Time and tides wait for no man

Heard of Time and tides wait for no man?

Yes, but we never take it to the heart.

Realize that time is short when, things start changing 

Death of a friends or family, awaken us from the slumber.

Feeling of grief causes us to ponder,

Questions of life and its progress keep on playing in my mind.

Friendship will change through time, it doesn't matter how close is the proximity.

trials and testing will prove whether the friendship is worthy.

Heard of what you reap is what you sow,

Or what you sow is what you reap;

Relationship sometime doesn't work that way,

No matter how much love that is pour out.

when It is cherrish, Is like a rose trample on the ground.

Love pour out, unless one who received it will fall on the ground

Thought of the Month

I have been thinking,

I have been reflecting, 

I have been pondering, 

What God have done in my Life, People that I have impact in Campus.

Before this year 2011 end.

Remind me all the things He have done in my life and His Faithfulness keep me going.

There are times I wanna give up. At some point I have some thought of ending my life.

His Love hindered me from making the Huge mistake.

He told me that is grace is sufficient for me, His strength is made perfect in my weakness.(II Corinthians 12:9)

I told myself I am a waste of time, I don't worth your life, I don't worth your time, but you say other wise

I was trying to forge my destiny, I couldn't accept the brokenness and situations that I am in.

I remind myself that what you have done in my life.

I remind myself the moment where I poured out everything to you.

I remind myself a Savior that save me from the pit of Hell

I remind myself a Friend that always be there for me when everyone Neglects me.

I remind myself that I need not to protect myself , I have found a refuge in HIM alone.

Silence Is Golden

Silence is Golden. I heard it many times, but I think this time it really make sense to me.

As the phrase speak to me personally.

Today I saw a post from my friend, she say she is in 'Silent Mode'.

I guess there are times we need to quite down ourselves and think.

We are living in a rapid world, things are changing at fast speed.

I have decided to minimize my status updates in Facebook or deactivate my Facebook if possible.

Looking back the post that I have updated, I will say I have acted out of foolishness. I will Flood my Blogs instead of frequent facebook updates. My Roommate was annoyed by me, the frequent updates in Facebook, moreover he have questioned me about, " why you always appear in my top news when I log in FB". It shall be done, gotta put a fullstop on Facebook before people start stonning my wall.