Gamers always be gamer

Honestly speaking Gamers are the same
They blame people for everything but refuse to acknowledge their own faults
If you have a few gamer friends, I believe you would agree what I am saying.

It is always easy to blame, than taking responsibilities over the mess that you have created.

Anyway I have signed out from their accounts, I wash my hand cleaned from the basin.
I hold no accounts to their actions, neither wanna be part of the shit they are in....

April's Fool, Nobody's fool

I am April's fool.

Fool for believing you 2nd time , giving you 2nd chance to hurt me.

Never again I will let you to do this.

Hardening my heart preventing it be hurt again.

I am nobody's fool, giving you 2nd chance doesn't  mean I am stupid  just that cared too much about this relationship.

For now it doesn't  matter for me everyone is the same, people tend to be dishonest and double standards.

These are the attributes I hated the most.

Today is the saddest day, a mixtures of pain, anger and sadness.

I will grow out from this pain. 

Enough of explaining myself, no one hears everyone assuming and not asking, that's fine that is how the world 🌎 operates.

Feeling expressed here have no prejudice to anyone not any religion it is purely from my heart. Feel free to leave my page if you don't  really like an honest mistakes.

Bye 2016

Bye 2016

Welcome 2017!!!

Say good bye to 2016

Looking forward for something new.


Life is not always ups, sometime down....

But think on the brighter side I wish all is well, hope for the best is yet to come.
2017, I will surrender my life to the almighty....
2016, I did it my way ended so bad, landed on wrong side, get hurts and wounds
Hopefully, all will be well again when i realigned the priorities of life.

It has been a rough years in 2016, I have learned many life lessons.



New Job is coming, New opportunity.....
Hope all the best, in 2017 in your life...

Will update more, what is going on and share more of my own personal thoughts and perspectives
Will be more expressive than last year....
Will be more noisy, more frequent post and updates.
Will be updating my blog more frequent
thank you my regular readers for your support.

 

Revisiting the past

Remembering the Past, This was Hill Citi College, A college nearby my House.

Most of my homegrown friend attended this college and graduated from it, what they never expected 

is this college, Wind up.

Alot of my friends are puzzled, some changed career some retake their syllabus in another Local university.

Last time remember My mom did nagged me, telling me why didn't I join this college it was affordable and near my house.

Thank God, I have made my decisions did not based on others judgments nor opinions.

I stood firm on the college that I have selected.

Until Now it still exist TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN COLLEGE & UNIVERSITY.

Hope all the best is yet to come, now in the midst of attending interviews.

NOVEMBER be nice to me 

Happiness is Simple

Happiness is simple,

It could be sharing foods with people we love.

It could be sharing our most inner part 

For me Happiness is easy

Happiness having enough food,

A place to rest my head,

A bunch of positive supportive friends that you could call them

brother and sister in Christ.

A throwback that day I bought this affordable food, Rojak

Rojak, is the local Mixed tropical fruits with special sweet and spicy dressing.

If Oversea friend drop by Malaysia they must try this Malaysian Food.

Guess how much I paid for this Food?

It cost about RM5.50 portion is quite large, with alot of sauce

This Rojak hawker , he usually start selling from lunch break until 6pm.

His store is situated nearby Genting Kelang, Wet Market.

Feel free to drop Comments, recommendations or any Inquiries....

I will reply when available =) 

Thanks for reading

Confession of a HeartBroken

It sucks,

Even the person closest to you misunderstand you,

No matter how eager you to explains,

It is true what hurts the most are those that are close.

the misunderstanding keep on snow balling,

People do get tired, I am tired of this Relationship

I tell myself it is Over.

Game Over.

I am leaving, leaving you lonely.

Hardening my Heart 

so I would not be feeling any pains

some pain are worth taking, some are just a waste of time if we keep holding on.

Should I hold on or Give up?

Worth going through the pain again?

Honesty

this is lacking between us.

Whenever an question is asked, you will reply we with another questions.

For my part, I am holding myself ...

Why it is so hard for people to be honest.

Many Are Curious about what is happening

Only Few are truly care.

well I guess this is just reality of Life

I was hit Hard,

Now my life FUCKED

Pretty Fucked

I have wasted the whole year of 2016.

Choose to Leave or Stay

Am I going to delete those negative people and stop their influence over my life?
Choice is yours, to change or remain...
Well i choose to change, despite of my situation what could i do?
Not to react any dramas causes by them but remain calm at all time stay away from them as far as possible.

Who is the them ?
Those negative people.
Have you ever came across some people who come to you with only complains but when you have understand what they are going through and presented solutions to them, they ignored and continue to complains the situations they are going through.
Telling you, you never understood until you gone through thinking their problems are so unique they are the only person in the world is suffering it.

Self-pity fellas, such a pathetic being, he know what he is going through but refuse to take actions,
have everyone on the list to be blame except himself.
Everyday dialogs are "poor me "
Talking to them drains much of my Mana  ( energy).
I have plan my way out , stay away from them before they demotivate me and bring me along with them to the pit of hell.

I am jovial person, I may have alot of optimistic energy but it will be drained out speaking with self-pity...
Day after day they will come to you the same complains, fucked just get a life.
Sometime I think why don't you change if you are unhappy with your current situations, instead of complain.

Unhappy. Insomnia. Sleeplessness

Today I have just finish all my work, somehow finished sorting out my stuff and it is already 2am.

Just now I feel sleepy but after while sorting old files, saw some old profile reminded me Unhappy events in the past, back then I was innocent easily cheated and bullied.

How I wish back then I was smart full of wisdom and able to evade most of those attacks.
Unfortunately life don't work that way, we have to go through this experience, Life lesson then forever it will registered in my mind.

Realised, when one is unhappy it is hard to fell asleep ......
I don't know why, I do not wanna close my eyes just wanna stay awake keep my mind occupy with productive thoughts and keep my hand workings.

I need help,
Slowly I am into darkness...
Cloud of depression coming,
Suicidal thoughts ( yes, I have plenty of those but I delay It)
I have planned to Commit suicide at certain age, mayb around 35 years old, so I am young forever =)
After death then no need bother by those endless thoughts.
Not a bad idea, dying young.

XOXO
keep it secret over here.

Sleepless NIght

Well another Sleepless night.

As night comes people's mind are more active, according to a psychology journal that I have read.
Is it True?

Well I think it is true, according to the journal usual day we are so distracted by lot of stuffs , (need to be done)

As night arise,  we our to do list shorten, and our mind start thinking about past, present and future.
For me I took coffee, and my mind is still very sharp although the body is tired but the mind is spinning fast.

Learn to live at the moment, and do not let the worry of tomorrows nor regret of yesterday robs you of today's blessings. LIVE NOW, have to constantly remind myself.

For now
Goodnight
Nature's calling to bed.

OH My August

Oh My August,
July have left now august, have to secure the month,
Time flies, was in holiday for sometime
Time to get Employ again.
Whatever it is got to take a chance, Breakaway from this current situation.
Be bold to face every obstacles of life.
Cannot afford to be indecisive, Just have to plan and execute....
It has been sometime I have been indecisive and Procrastinate , time to take back the turf
Time to redeem back those lost time,
Months I feel into these DOTA addictions, It is time to call it off.

Things I need to achieve.
Find new job, New Career pathway, be contented yet not complacent, Constantly improve overall well being ( intellectual, physical, spiritual)

Never give up on your dreams, just that there are few small sets backs, remind yourself the GOAL.
Life is a process , sometimes we have to go through some setbacks gained some experience, through the experience it form resilient.

Mid year Review.
Goal that I want to achieve a better physical outlook, have a better body, Shoulder, arms , Huge Chest, V-shape Back, Well developed.

Better career advancement.Flourish in the Financial service and Fitness Industry
More customers, larger network platform, ultimately more money

Hope that are will be well =)
May the odds will be in my favour

Forgiveness is A Choice

It seems that I am not really a forgiving person...
I have said you can only DiD this once.
Many I friendship I have written off, i don't really care much....

Endure it Justin, Just a short while, pain is temporary, glory is forever...
The pain you gone through, the tough situation and the Hard people yo have met
Going through this develop patience, perseverance and endurance.

Have I not prayed to God to removed all these stings, wonder why don't GOD bring me to heaven
the moment I said the sinner's prayer?
Have you wonder why??
Have you ever question about it ?
As time goes by, I realized that we are called , chosen to be the generations that make a difference...
Be the Salt of the Earth and the Light of the World.

I chose to Forgive even though it is Hard, I choose to Obey your commandment because I love you
I will keep all your commandments because I love you.
Lord, I have prayed that never let my heart grow cold towards you and others.
There was a time, I was so badly wounded, I have chosen the road of rebellion, Walking a life of hatred, have Harden my heart so that I won't feel hurt when people try to hurt me.
No longer feel angry, sad nor anguish.....
That kind of emotion numbness have transformed me into a person I couldn't  understand,
Slowly the cloud of depression and the fog of fear cover my vision.
Realized the devil strategy to destroy a person, is through separation of between, God , Self and others. One who is not able relate themselves with others , God and even themselves.

Thankfully God have delivered me from these Depression and Fears, HIS perfect love cast out all fears...
Thank you God, your faithfulness never end despite me walk away, you still will woo me back with your everlasting love.
( Continue.....)

Are you Lost

Are you lost?
Lost in the wilderness?
Lost in the big Cities?
Concrete jungle....Surrounded with people yet Still feel lonely.
Ironically people who with a group of people, feel more lonely that people who are alone.
Funny think one can enjoy their time alone with themselves without being alone.

I have experienced this season of my life before,
Would like to share it next time in details,
those lifehacks tips I have found it useful.
Will share to you all in next round

As I have Promised..... But Failed

As I have promised Last year and the year before atleast a Blog a Day.
Eventually I have failed, never mind moving on to the changing part.
This is the most exciting part, I have decided to Post less stuff in Facebook, but rather express myself freely in BLOGGER.

Attachment with Facebook it has been an unhealthy one, coming together with its apps in mobile phone, makes it a real distraction. So, I have decided to pull myself away from Facebook, stop nagging and complaining things over there instead I could share my insights in blog, moreover it help me to improve writing skills( another ways to express myself)

Few day ago I have tried to deactivate Facebook, but urge come strongly, It last only a day and Night.
I think i should delete the facebook apps so logging in will be challenging for me.


Social Media is a double edged sword either it could improve your productivity or destructive distraction tools. constant feeds and Alert could really distract you from the main coarse of your schedule.

How to overcome it?
For me I am still overcoming it.....
What I could do I install an apps help me to stay focus for 10 minutes , don't look down on 10 minutes of focus, you could really perform better compare to 50 minutes of multitask.
This Apps call Forest, it is quite cool it help u to stay focus, after completing staying away from phone on the designated time, you will earn a tree. Start as a seed, as time goes by it will slowly grow into tree.

Final say 

Sometime we are so busy of checking people out and we have forgotten to live their life

Live At the Moment, Enjoy Life, Stay away From Facebook(Social media)

Moment of Inspiration, Greater Blessing is coming

Times of refreshing.
Here in your presence
there is no Greater Blessing
than being with you.

This phrase keep on echoing in my heart
The art of thanksgiving is yet to be perfected in my life.
I am still on the long road.

Do you know what is the key to happiness?
Thanksgiving.
I am thankful what I have been gone through the good and bad, that make me of what I am.

Fear.
It is very common, I strike almost everybody just the degree of it might be greater or lessor.
Never afraid of making mistakes. Remind yourself there is no Failure only feedbacks. If you fail rise up again and learnt from mistakes, move on, stop harboring in the pass.

Forgiveness
most people been struggling with releasing forgiveness, the saying of I forgive you is easy but doing gets challenging at most time.
Never the less it take courage to face the offender.

NEW YEAR 2016

New Year 2016

New Beginning,
New Seasons
New Changes,
Change become the antique.

Mother Therasa Once Said,
 ' Some people come into our life as blessing some come into our lives as lessons'
I have learned alot thank God.
Scammers and Real Friends help me learn what is the realistic life


Just today my roommate have spoken to a few of my other housemates,
He refuse to let us the roommates to know what actually happened
I do not know what is the new conspiracy is this.
For now he act like leaders of the room that is pact with the leader of the house.

He keep spreading the news that does not allow us(roommates) to know.
I do not know what but I surrender all to YOU LORD JESUS.
Believing NO weapon form against me will prosper.
All things work well for those who LOVE HIM (JESUS)


I take RISK again, indeed i trust in you LORD. This year 2016 make it a different year.
In Faith I believe I will archieved this year GOALS.
I will take on 2 jobs. One it will be a Sales Executive job the other will be Financial Consultant, working day and night. Lifestyle gonna be change time to be serious with my own careers wake up Justin You are 26 years old. It is time to give your all, I am ALL IN, full gear

Life is good

Life is good!! Not because of LG but because of Samsung recently just bought Samsung Galaxy S6 Edge under data plans sign up with Maxis One plan. It was awesome now i can call people unlimited.

Example of Holding a Violin( the wrong way)

Just now from facebook, I came across this profile picture. This picture about is showijg you the example of a wrong Violin holding position look at the left wrist as well as the right of the violinist. The next post I will post a proper violin holding of the bow as well as the left hand's correct position/posture.
It is very obvious that this person is not.a Violin player by the way he hold the violin and the bow.

Conjuring

Latest movie Conjuring.
This movie is based on the real srory and the haunted doll is still exist, it is put within the horror museum. (Don't remember which state of America.)

LoL today I was using the free dictionary. Com Apps in my Android phone. I was curious after I have used the apps so I decided to see anyone's word search near my apartment.  This is what I have discover, I have discover someone try tp find the meaning of conjuring.
Nothing much today Just #Random #Sharing

La tour de Shanghai

Just came back from Shanghai. 

A remarkable experience. The journey started on September 22rd until 27th. Although it is just a 6 day experience but it is very inspiring trips.

The trip was called "Vision trip" a group of 7people including my friend frim UTAR CF have joined the trip.

Korean BBQ in Shanghai

Garden of Contentment Yu Yuan

Yu Yuan

Pudong Airport

Fudan University

Breakfast

Shanghai View

Dinner with the missionaries

Friends =)

Mantou with meat

Corn with Glutenous rice ball

Crispy Duck meat

Xi Tang( ancient lake city)

The place where Tom Cruise film the MI5

Shanghai's Chinese style dinner

Japanese Food

A pot of seafood goodness

Flour topping with spaghetti inside

Italian Pizza

From the picture obviously we have been to lot place to eat.

We eat more than sight-seeing 

Really grateful for the warm hospitality from the Korean people in Shanghai.

All the food and accommodation are take care by them(Korean elders& Deacons).

The cost of our food for 6 day approx 7000RMB.

Things just happen....

Things just happen

It just happen

Sometime I just too lazy to blog or mention about it

I guess the word " Let It Be" keep playing in my mind.

Months of Tabor, Months of pain

Month of Gain for things that are vain.

Brain overloaded with facts,

Thank God, exam period just over.

Just you thought everything is over,

Another level of challenge just begun.

After the end of my final paper,

Is the same day I lost my phone(Samsung S2).

Lost in after I came sown from the public bus.

Mix feeling struck my mind,

I have been silenced  for hours.

Days later I have managed to regather myself.

I stood up and cut the story short I bought a new phone. =)

which is S3.