Loneliness will Kill?

Loneliness will kill?

I would say yes and No.

Probably depends how One allocate their time

Get into doing interesting self development stuffs,

would help them to get over the feeling of Self pity, loneliness...

As long one gets their hands dirty and busy they will not have time to think about

oh I am the most lonely person in the Planet.

This is how I get along with it.

Most of my time I spent on myself,

Time alone with myself, yes..... Does't mean I am perfect

I don't feel lonely, At times I feel really lonely but 

these are the stuffs I normally do.

I get myself occupied at the gym( exercise), some nights will have night at the streets or park.

Tried some favorite cooking recipe saw online, 

Set goals and small steps archiving it, 

Daily journal writings get my thoughts under control.

Pray, talk to God, I find it more therapeutic than talking to human, hahah doesn't mean I don't talk to People, be selective talk to people who are willing to listen. 

Get involved in community work, get to know people who have the same vision...

Recently I get involve in church stuffs, serving as Pianist for the church.... NO idea how will it go for long term just get myself occupied...

So these are some of the ways how I curb with loneliness, beside constant grouping activities

Time alone, helps you reflects and recap what have happened, I found that I think more when alone compare to group, It helps personal development.

Feel free to drop me comments tell me how you curb with loneliness? 

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I am grateful i have a house that is comfortable...

If one day i have to live in a cage i might commit suicide

Lesson Learnt

Painful yet memorable Lesson, Life lesson.

I find it therapeutic expressing it in the Blog.

No point whining in Facebook, looking for approval, agreement or likes.

Yes indeed Mother Theresa, is right. Some people enter our life as Blessing, while some enter our life as lesson.

Yet a Painful lesson over the past quarter April, may, June.

I do not wanna Describe it in Details, but it helps me to learn that Human will be human,

Human are realistic, degree of realistic is determine by the degree of their selfishness.

Once a human know what they really want, they are realistic, its the matter of degrees of it.

After today I have decided to be more Realistic person, I will invest more time on myself to make myself more competitive.

Less time will be wasted on wrong people, at wrong places, I will not hesitate

to delete or block contacts.

Do what is necessary to redeem back the lost time. 

In the past alot of time wasted on the wrong people, promised myself will not let anyone waste my time, I will let time DID once after that BYE BYE .

Gotta repick myself up and clear myself from those messed up

Sleepless NIght

Well another Sleepless night.

As night comes people's mind are more active, according to a psychology journal that I have read.
Is it True?

Well I think it is true, according to the journal usual day we are so distracted by lot of stuffs , (need to be done)

As night arise,  we our to do list shorten, and our mind start thinking about past, present and future.
For me I took coffee, and my mind is still very sharp although the body is tired but the mind is spinning fast.

Learn to live at the moment, and do not let the worry of tomorrows nor regret of yesterday robs you of today's blessings. LIVE NOW, have to constantly remind myself.

For now
Goodnight
Nature's calling to bed.

Forgiveness is A Choice

It seems that I am not really a forgiving person...
I have said you can only DiD this once.
Many I friendship I have written off, i don't really care much....

Endure it Justin, Just a short while, pain is temporary, glory is forever...
The pain you gone through, the tough situation and the Hard people yo have met
Going through this develop patience, perseverance and endurance.

Have I not prayed to God to removed all these stings, wonder why don't GOD bring me to heaven
the moment I said the sinner's prayer?
Have you wonder why??
Have you ever question about it ?
As time goes by, I realized that we are called , chosen to be the generations that make a difference...
Be the Salt of the Earth and the Light of the World.

I chose to Forgive even though it is Hard, I choose to Obey your commandment because I love you
I will keep all your commandments because I love you.
Lord, I have prayed that never let my heart grow cold towards you and others.
There was a time, I was so badly wounded, I have chosen the road of rebellion, Walking a life of hatred, have Harden my heart so that I won't feel hurt when people try to hurt me.
No longer feel angry, sad nor anguish.....
That kind of emotion numbness have transformed me into a person I couldn't  understand,
Slowly the cloud of depression and the fog of fear cover my vision.
Realized the devil strategy to destroy a person, is through separation of between, God , Self and others. One who is not able relate themselves with others , God and even themselves.

Thankfully God have delivered me from these Depression and Fears, HIS perfect love cast out all fears...
Thank you God, your faithfulness never end despite me walk away, you still will woo me back with your everlasting love.
( Continue.....)

Uncertainty

I do not understand this type of feeling, which i am struggling....

Uncertainty of many things was around, especially appointments that i need to meet,

who should you give priority.

Uncertainty the Job, and career path that I am going and thinking would I have enough money to survive

At the moment I felt I am Stuck, but I believe I am In the hand of my creator.

He who hold the stars and moon will not slumber,

He will watch over me, He will be my guide

He take cares everything.

Constantly need to remind myself, 

I am yours, whatever I have is yours, and you are mine.

The scripture Matt 6:33 came across my mind seek ye First the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you.

Meditate the scripture until it sinks into my Heart and Soul.

Till Now I surrender all to you,

keep on enjoy your fellowship and rest in you.


These 2 songs speak to me personally, be bless by those songs

                                               

                                      10,000 Reasons (Bless The Lord)

                                               

Who Am I (Casting Crown)

As I have Promised..... But Failed

As I have promised Last year and the year before atleast a Blog a Day.
Eventually I have failed, never mind moving on to the changing part.
This is the most exciting part, I have decided to Post less stuff in Facebook, but rather express myself freely in BLOGGER.

Attachment with Facebook it has been an unhealthy one, coming together with its apps in mobile phone, makes it a real distraction. So, I have decided to pull myself away from Facebook, stop nagging and complaining things over there instead I could share my insights in blog, moreover it help me to improve writing skills( another ways to express myself)

Few day ago I have tried to deactivate Facebook, but urge come strongly, It last only a day and Night.
I think i should delete the facebook apps so logging in will be challenging for me.


Social Media is a double edged sword either it could improve your productivity or destructive distraction tools. constant feeds and Alert could really distract you from the main coarse of your schedule.

How to overcome it?
For me I am still overcoming it.....
What I could do I install an apps help me to stay focus for 10 minutes , don't look down on 10 minutes of focus, you could really perform better compare to 50 minutes of multitask.
This Apps call Forest, it is quite cool it help u to stay focus, after completing staying away from phone on the designated time, you will earn a tree. Start as a seed, as time goes by it will slowly grow into tree.

Final say 

Sometime we are so busy of checking people out and we have forgotten to live their life

Live At the Moment, Enjoy Life, Stay away From Facebook(Social media)

Malaysia Prime Minister

I feel ashamed what have happened over here in Malaysia.

I believe most of the People in Malaysia know what I am talking be it in Malaysia or Abroad.

Our PM's story, I cannot type here just Google Malaysia PM money scandal 2.6 billion.

Just about a month ago Happened a Peaceful rally Bersih 4.0

The Reason of this Peaceful Rally,

Hope that Malaysia Leader will have a Cleaner election

Freedom of Speech applied in.

Actually I am taking a risk In writing this blog,

If found by Government, I might be charge under seditious act.

Never the Less As Malaysian, Always keep Malaysia in Prayer.

I believe we are in God's hand and I believe we have to go through this dark age before entering to the light.

Whatever will be will be.

The future is within the hands of all fellow Malaysians

Keep our leaders in prayer, Pray for a Righteous leader.

Source: http://www.theguardian.com/world/2015/aug/21/malaysias-mahathir-calls-for-parliament-to-sack-prime-minister-najib-razak

http://time.com/4030815/1mdb-credit-suisse-hong-kong-malaysia-najib-razak/

http://topics.wsj.com/person/N/najib-razak/6471

http://www.wsj.com/articles/malaysia-braces-for-protests-against-prime-minister-najib-1440766294?tesla=y

SAD

I admit I feel Sad.

Couldn't deny it, would like to deny it.

Would like to bury those negatives feelings.

I guess I just release it in form of writing.

I felt people Kinda fake, Hypocrites.

The mouth is hot but the heart is not.

Insincerity really cuts and their smiles is razor blades.

Love to listen to sad songs, during these down seasons.

Enjoying the moments of sadness, betrayel , Loneliness, Misunderstandings.

Keep on telling myself to be strong no matter what, PAIN is temporary Glory is forever.

My Business is not doing good, weird I am not Worry, I lost My feeling....

I feel really bad, 

I hope this won't progress into Depression

I don't want the feeling of Killing myself again.

Regrets

Regrets i have a few, today went bodybuilding competitions, aiks missed the photo taking session with my bro, feeling kinda shy, i hesitated to meet him for picture session. Kinda proud of him, never the less i tell myself never cry over spilled milk.

Next time be bold and do it, better making mistakes than regrets for not taking the opportunity when limited time is given.
Cheers.