New Season of Life

Happy =)
A short updates, what is my life's on going ....
Ushering the New Season of Life is coming, gotta keep calm, but I am super exciting about it.
Alot of prayers and preparation for that ....

Recently received some calls and attended a few interviews.

Hope that I will able to get in Marcus Evan company, so far the best interview I ever had,
I have a meaningful chat with the manager, if I am successful will make it to next round.

Lot of experience gained through meeting alot of seniors in the business arena.
Heart is full of gratefulness, hope i will have a great start.

Unhappy. Insomnia. Sleeplessness

Today I have just finish all my work, somehow finished sorting out my stuff and it is already 2am.

Just now I feel sleepy but after while sorting old files, saw some old profile reminded me Unhappy events in the past, back then I was innocent easily cheated and bullied.

How I wish back then I was smart full of wisdom and able to evade most of those attacks.
Unfortunately life don't work that way, we have to go through this experience, Life lesson then forever it will registered in my mind.

Realised, when one is unhappy it is hard to fell asleep ......
I don't know why, I do not wanna close my eyes just wanna stay awake keep my mind occupy with productive thoughts and keep my hand workings.

I need help,
Slowly I am into darkness...
Cloud of depression coming,
Suicidal thoughts ( yes, I have plenty of those but I delay It)
I have planned to Commit suicide at certain age, mayb around 35 years old, so I am young forever =)
After death then no need bother by those endless thoughts.
Not a bad idea, dying young.

XOXO
keep it secret over here.

Lesson Learnt

Painful yet memorable Lesson, Life lesson.

I find it therapeutic expressing it in the Blog.

No point whining in Facebook, looking for approval, agreement or likes.

Yes indeed Mother Theresa, is right. Some people enter our life as Blessing, while some enter our life as lesson.

Yet a Painful lesson over the past quarter April, may, June.

I do not wanna Describe it in Details, but it helps me to learn that Human will be human,

Human are realistic, degree of realistic is determine by the degree of their selfishness.

Once a human know what they really want, they are realistic, its the matter of degrees of it.

After today I have decided to be more Realistic person, I will invest more time on myself to make myself more competitive.

Less time will be wasted on wrong people, at wrong places, I will not hesitate

to delete or block contacts.

Do what is necessary to redeem back the lost time. 

In the past alot of time wasted on the wrong people, promised myself will not let anyone waste my time, I will let time DID once after that BYE BYE .

Gotta repick myself up and clear myself from those messed up

Sleepless NIght

Well another Sleepless night.

As night comes people's mind are more active, according to a psychology journal that I have read.
Is it True?

Well I think it is true, according to the journal usual day we are so distracted by lot of stuffs , (need to be done)

As night arise,  we our to do list shorten, and our mind start thinking about past, present and future.
For me I took coffee, and my mind is still very sharp although the body is tired but the mind is spinning fast.

Learn to live at the moment, and do not let the worry of tomorrows nor regret of yesterday robs you of today's blessings. LIVE NOW, have to constantly remind myself.

For now
Goodnight
Nature's calling to bed.

OH My August

Oh My August,
July have left now august, have to secure the month,
Time flies, was in holiday for sometime
Time to get Employ again.
Whatever it is got to take a chance, Breakaway from this current situation.
Be bold to face every obstacles of life.
Cannot afford to be indecisive, Just have to plan and execute....
It has been sometime I have been indecisive and Procrastinate , time to take back the turf
Time to redeem back those lost time,
Months I feel into these DOTA addictions, It is time to call it off.

Things I need to achieve.
Find new job, New Career pathway, be contented yet not complacent, Constantly improve overall well being ( intellectual, physical, spiritual)

Never give up on your dreams, just that there are few small sets backs, remind yourself the GOAL.
Life is a process , sometimes we have to go through some setbacks gained some experience, through the experience it form resilient.

Mid year Review.
Goal that I want to achieve a better physical outlook, have a better body, Shoulder, arms , Huge Chest, V-shape Back, Well developed.

Better career advancement.Flourish in the Financial service and Fitness Industry
More customers, larger network platform, ultimately more money

Hope that are will be well =)
May the odds will be in my favour