Thought of the Month

I have been thinking,

I have been reflecting, 

I have been pondering, 

What God have done in my Life, People that I have impact in Campus.

Before this year 2011 end.

Remind me all the things He have done in my life and His Faithfulness keep me going.

There are times I wanna give up. At some point I have some thought of ending my life.

His Love hindered me from making the Huge mistake.

He told me that is grace is sufficient for me, His strength is made perfect in my weakness.(II Corinthians 12:9)

I told myself I am a waste of time, I don't worth your life, I don't worth your time, but you say other wise

I was trying to forge my destiny, I couldn't accept the brokenness and situations that I am in.

I remind myself that what you have done in my life.

I remind myself the moment where I poured out everything to you.

I remind myself a Savior that save me from the pit of Hell

I remind myself a Friend that always be there for me when everyone Neglects me.

I remind myself that I need not to protect myself , I have found a refuge in HIM alone.

My December

This December would be a different December compare to the previous one.

Its a Bittersweet December .

Lots of sweet things happen, as Bitter stuffs abounds

A festive month for all of us.

A lot of invitations from friends , from various church and denominations.

Every week I am invited to a Christmas celebration, I have noticed networks of friends are growing ... 

I am so blessed. I thought i am happy but I wasn't. The joy of Christmas 

I have neglected the one that I've supposed to show love and concern. 

She waited for me; I have disappoint her again and again.

I have promised to come, but I have never showed up , I was so caught up with the events around me :(

Regret.

Never felt that strong remorse before , just a week ago I was talking with my Indian nanny. Knowing that she is not feeling well, I gave her a call wanted to invite her to a " Christian Healing rally". Unfortunately she is immobile and her sons are not really keen to transport her from her house. In our conversation, she told me to visit her when I am free. And I thought I gonna visit her next week, but it turn out to be different, I have attended a wedding instead. She have suffered much from disease and grief that caused by her sons. Her sons have neglected her in many ways. Yes, they do provide a home, but a home without love 

Picture in my Mind.

Picture of my nanny keep playing in my mind, I can only let her live in my memories. I LOVE HER. She is like my second mom. I felt sorry for her, I keep blaming myself and others for her lost. I know what I say or do couldn't bring her back. I miss her so much. From today onward I will promised you, I will treat my parents well when they are old, I will cherish them ,pour out my unconditional love towards them. 

RIP nanny,

Sincerely Love Justin .

Friend Forever??

Friend Forever ???
I never believe that...... Appreciate your friends at the moment before they depreciate.


Just a series of minor conflicts , never thought the damage are permanent..

Since the last quarrels we had, we have stop communicate with each other.Anyway I just wish him all the best in everything.

Fruitful Year end Quarter 2011

Quarter of the year start busy in October , November and December .

Lots of performance are going on, Oh boy indeed I am living in an exciting moment. 

Orchestra performance in October was good, thank God we didn't screw up, last minute of 2 weeks practice does payoff. Most of all thanks to Miss Ang she is willing to be our Conductor in Last minute all else it will be screwed, our tempos are not synchronize. 

October's performance is done , The coming one will be Christmas the they want me to be part of the band for the Christmas Event. It is honor to Serve in Christian Fellowship. Hope that It will be a great Christmas Night. Lot of people will come to know Christ =) 

Hiatus

Having a short break from Blog.
It has been a long time I didn't update my blogs.
Will update it more frequent in the end of December.
Gonna be really busy....... Christmas just around the corner.
Wish to see all my friends soon ....  =)