Confession of a HeartBroken

It sucks,

Even the person closest to you misunderstand you,

No matter how eager you to explains,

It is true what hurts the most are those that are close.

the misunderstanding keep on snow balling,

People do get tired, I am tired of this Relationship

I tell myself it is Over.

Game Over.

I am leaving, leaving you lonely.

Hardening my Heart 

so I would not be feeling any pains

some pain are worth taking, some are just a waste of time if we keep holding on.

Should I hold on or Give up?

Worth going through the pain again?

Honesty

this is lacking between us.

Whenever an question is asked, you will reply we with another questions.

For my part, I am holding myself ...

Why it is so hard for people to be honest.

Many Are Curious about what is happening

Only Few are truly care.

well I guess this is just reality of Life

I was hit Hard,

Now my life FUCKED

Pretty Fucked

I have wasted the whole year of 2016.

Choose to Leave or Stay

Am I going to delete those negative people and stop their influence over my life?
Choice is yours, to change or remain...
Well i choose to change, despite of my situation what could i do?
Not to react any dramas causes by them but remain calm at all time stay away from them as far as possible.

Who is the them ?
Those negative people.
Have you ever came across some people who come to you with only complains but when you have understand what they are going through and presented solutions to them, they ignored and continue to complains the situations they are going through.
Telling you, you never understood until you gone through thinking their problems are so unique they are the only person in the world is suffering it.

Self-pity fellas, such a pathetic being, he know what he is going through but refuse to take actions,
have everyone on the list to be blame except himself.
Everyday dialogs are "poor me "
Talking to them drains much of my Mana  ( energy).
I have plan my way out , stay away from them before they demotivate me and bring me along with them to the pit of hell.

I am jovial person, I may have alot of optimistic energy but it will be drained out speaking with self-pity...
Day after day they will come to you the same complains, fucked just get a life.
Sometime I think why don't you change if you are unhappy with your current situations, instead of complain.

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I am grateful i have a house that is comfortable...

If one day i have to live in a cage i might commit suicide

New Season of Life

Happy =)
A short updates, what is my life's on going ....
Ushering the New Season of Life is coming, gotta keep calm, but I am super exciting about it.
Alot of prayers and preparation for that ....

Recently received some calls and attended a few interviews.

Hope that I will able to get in Marcus Evan company, so far the best interview I ever had,
I have a meaningful chat with the manager, if I am successful will make it to next round.

Lot of experience gained through meeting alot of seniors in the business arena.
Heart is full of gratefulness, hope i will have a great start.

Unhappy. Insomnia. Sleeplessness

Today I have just finish all my work, somehow finished sorting out my stuff and it is already 2am.

Just now I feel sleepy but after while sorting old files, saw some old profile reminded me Unhappy events in the past, back then I was innocent easily cheated and bullied.

How I wish back then I was smart full of wisdom and able to evade most of those attacks.
Unfortunately life don't work that way, we have to go through this experience, Life lesson then forever it will registered in my mind.

Realised, when one is unhappy it is hard to fell asleep ......
I don't know why, I do not wanna close my eyes just wanna stay awake keep my mind occupy with productive thoughts and keep my hand workings.

I need help,
Slowly I am into darkness...
Cloud of depression coming,
Suicidal thoughts ( yes, I have plenty of those but I delay It)
I have planned to Commit suicide at certain age, mayb around 35 years old, so I am young forever =)
After death then no need bother by those endless thoughts.
Not a bad idea, dying young.

XOXO
keep it secret over here.