UPDATES

It has been awhile bloggers, since my last update

Life was hard for me, 

went through the tunnel of Darkness.

Now I am in the season of blooming, came out from darkness.

I have started to appreciate the light more.

Forsake my past and move on to the future,

Remove what doesn't belongs to God,

I have decided never to be under the yoke of slavery.

it is a constant struggles where I couldn't let my bros and Sister

know about it.

I believe I have to face the Devil by my own self,

Whoever is reading this I don't care, I am not afraid being stalk

If you wish to know me personally I am always welcome you/

It will be the time where I let the cat out of the bag.

My heart is moved but My mind is denying it.

Is this Love, Lust or another kinda of feelings.

Feelings need to be expressed cannot be denied.

Time to move on ....

It has been a long time ....

I have been moving house since December 2014, I have moved again on May 2015.

I will move house again after I have obtained My Sales TARGET.

It will time of joy and Travel, enjoy the fruits of my hardwork.

Regrets

Regrets i have a few, today went bodybuilding competitions, aiks missed the photo taking session with my bro, feeling kinda shy, i hesitated to meet him for picture session. Kinda proud of him, never the less i tell myself never cry over spilled milk.

Next time be bold and do it, better making mistakes than regrets for not taking the opportunity when limited time is given.
Cheers.

Tunnel

Past 3 months, just trap into this hole of depression.
Desperately seeking the way out, but i couldn't, anxious heart weight a man down. 

Fear of futures grip my heart, lacks of security drives me around doing things that condition myself to feel safe. Fears over grips my heart and worries paralysed my mind, everyday seems to be mundane, all i hope is the struggle is over.

Well 4 month have passed, Freedom visited me, i went to Freedom Seminar at Kingdom City Church, during the worship service i felt the touch of God's love, his warm embrace envelope me, like the waves cover the shores.

As been set free from oppression, my heart felt the release but my mind still struggles with racing thoughts, i know God still haven't finnish with me. As many whys start appearing in my mind, i have started to doubts and the fears revisited me again.

It was Wednesday evening, after work i have dilemma of deciding whether to go for company's training or just return home. After consulting my mom i still not convince to make decision, my mind was having lot of what-if" .

A step of faith, 

I took a step of faith just pray and get myself moving to the training venue. While on the way to my company, my self consciousness begin to manifest, begin to project what may happens.  On the journey to my company i took a bus, while i was inside the bus, thinking to distract myself from the overwhelming sensation fear i have plug-on to some of my favourite Christian songs.

"I am no longer slave to fear, I am the child of God." This song moved my heart, God was speaking to me through this songs of deliverance. I wanna express my Thanks to you Father, thank you for delivering from all fears. 

Meditation of those songs have moved my heart, i have made a decision of never look back to the past and Move forward towards the goals he have put in my heart.

I am forever grateful, from that day till now my mind is constantly renew, and I am enjoying the fellowship of the holy spirit

Home sweet home

There is no place like home.
Being busy is not the excuse of not going back home, the place where you belong.
I feel so good
Feel so happy when you are at home.
Simple writing, happiness  is so easy
Just being with the person  you like and stay in the house that is warm.

Plan ahead

I Need to start plan ahead.
Procrastination be removed, fear begone
Prepare for the worst.
Prepare for more challenges.
What is limiting my capabilities is the fears within it is not that I am not talented.
NEW challenges and Enemies are arising....