Revisiting the past

Remembering the Past, This was Hill Citi College, A college nearby my House.

Most of my homegrown friend attended this college and graduated from it, what they never expected 

is this college, Wind up.

Alot of my friends are puzzled, some changed career some retake their syllabus in another Local university.

Last time remember My mom did nagged me, telling me why didn't I join this college it was affordable and near my house.

Thank God, I have made my decisions did not based on others judgments nor opinions.

I stood firm on the college that I have selected.

Until Now it still exist TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN COLLEGE & UNIVERSITY.

Hope all the best is yet to come, now in the midst of attending interviews.

NOVEMBER be nice to me 

Don't Give Up

Throwback what Happened Last week....
Went for Interview at Fuji Xerox,
Got the feeling I have done well and Screwed the interview at the sametime. Hard to explain it is kind of mixed feelings, anyway I don't wish to worry about that.
Don't care what are the outcomes, gotta continue apply for Jobs...
This transitions of job is not easy, but i will persevere and consistently apply for jobs

Don't Give Up, as long you don't Give up there still be chance...
Eventually you will made it.
If you gave up in the half way, you won't see yourself through.

I want to encourage all, No matter how hard life throws at you, don't give up continue to fight you will see yourself through.

So far I have attended alot of interviews just don't know when they will call me for next appointment. but I cannot just sit there and wait for them, while waiting I am doing some parttime.... and multiple applications sent. Goodnews will be coming through.....
Will update on my next post  :)

Happiness is Simple

Happiness is simple,

It could be sharing foods with people we love.

It could be sharing our most inner part 

For me Happiness is easy

Happiness having enough food,

A place to rest my head,

A bunch of positive supportive friends that you could call them

brother and sister in Christ.

A throwback that day I bought this affordable food, Rojak

Rojak, is the local Mixed tropical fruits with special sweet and spicy dressing.

If Oversea friend drop by Malaysia they must try this Malaysian Food.

Guess how much I paid for this Food?

It cost about RM5.50 portion is quite large, with alot of sauce

This Rojak hawker , he usually start selling from lunch break until 6pm.

His store is situated nearby Genting Kelang, Wet Market.

Feel free to drop Comments, recommendations or any Inquiries....

I will reply when available =) 

Thanks for reading

Loneliness Versus Solitude

Language… has created the word ‘loneliness’ to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word ‘solitude’ to express the glory of being alone

What you think about Loneliness and solitude? Could you tell the difference?

Feel free to drop your comments below...

Loneliness will Kill?

Loneliness will kill?

I would say yes and No.

Probably depends how One allocate their time

Get into doing interesting self development stuffs,

would help them to get over the feeling of Self pity, loneliness...

As long one gets their hands dirty and busy they will not have time to think about

oh I am the most lonely person in the Planet.

This is how I get along with it.

Most of my time I spent on myself,

Time alone with myself, yes..... Does't mean I am perfect

I don't feel lonely, At times I feel really lonely but 

these are the stuffs I normally do.

I get myself occupied at the gym( exercise), some nights will have night at the streets or park.

Tried some favorite cooking recipe saw online, 

Set goals and small steps archiving it, 

Daily journal writings get my thoughts under control.

Pray, talk to God, I find it more therapeutic than talking to human, hahah doesn't mean I don't talk to People, be selective talk to people who are willing to listen. 

Get involved in community work, get to know people who have the same vision...

Recently I get involve in church stuffs, serving as Pianist for the church.... NO idea how will it go for long term just get myself occupied...

So these are some of the ways how I curb with loneliness, beside constant grouping activities

Time alone, helps you reflects and recap what have happened, I found that I think more when alone compare to group, It helps personal development.

Feel free to drop me comments tell me how you curb with loneliness? 

Short Updates

Short Updates

Nothing much or less i have expect in Life?
Except to be Happy.
There are times I hope that shouldn't be born.

Why I am born in this Family ?
Most of the time I have questioned my existence
Sad.
Am I Proud to be the member of their family? No


Born in a Family full of strive.
I believe Most people are not Proud of their Dad. Am I... NO, not proud of my Dad
Most of the children do not have good relationship with dad.
I used to have hope looking forward for father's love care and support...
Until the day that was hurt so badly, I told myself enough is enough ...
I do not want to get hurt anymore, that was the last phrase I told him
I would not talk to him until his death.
Even till his death I don't feel remorse nor regret.
It is Him who taken me for granted not me.
Always I am the one who is reaching out until I get tired and sick of those attitude.
I believe LOVE toward him has grow cold.

Now, Is my Mom's turn, felt like thing not going better......

Hope as time goes by everything will tilt to the positive side

Confession of a HeartBroken

It sucks,

Even the person closest to you misunderstand you,

No matter how eager you to explains,

It is true what hurts the most are those that are close.

the misunderstanding keep on snow balling,

People do get tired, I am tired of this Relationship

I tell myself it is Over.

Game Over.

I am leaving, leaving you lonely.

Hardening my Heart 

so I would not be feeling any pains

some pain are worth taking, some are just a waste of time if we keep holding on.

Should I hold on or Give up?

Worth going through the pain again?

Honesty

this is lacking between us.

Whenever an question is asked, you will reply we with another questions.

For my part, I am holding myself ...

Why it is so hard for people to be honest.

Many Are Curious about what is happening

Only Few are truly care.

well I guess this is just reality of Life

I was hit Hard,

Now my life FUCKED

Pretty Fucked

I have wasted the whole year of 2016.

Choose to Leave or Stay

Am I going to delete those negative people and stop their influence over my life?
Choice is yours, to change or remain...
Well i choose to change, despite of my situation what could i do?
Not to react any dramas causes by them but remain calm at all time stay away from them as far as possible.

Who is the them ?
Those negative people.
Have you ever came across some people who come to you with only complains but when you have understand what they are going through and presented solutions to them, they ignored and continue to complains the situations they are going through.
Telling you, you never understood until you gone through thinking their problems are so unique they are the only person in the world is suffering it.

Self-pity fellas, such a pathetic being, he know what he is going through but refuse to take actions,
have everyone on the list to be blame except himself.
Everyday dialogs are "poor me "
Talking to them drains much of my Mana  ( energy).
I have plan my way out , stay away from them before they demotivate me and bring me along with them to the pit of hell.

I am jovial person, I may have alot of optimistic energy but it will be drained out speaking with self-pity...
Day after day they will come to you the same complains, fucked just get a life.
Sometime I think why don't you change if you are unhappy with your current situations, instead of complain.

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I am grateful i have a house that is comfortable...

If one day i have to live in a cage i might commit suicide