Yesterday Sucks I feel like Dying, all the fractions of the past and present intertwine..
Unexplained Sadness keep dwelling for days and weeks
But
No worry I am still strong,
No matter how hard I will never took my own life
everything used to be.....
Now every sentence start with this word
"Used to be..."
People changes whether you can accept it or not,
It is a harsh fact and a lot of truths within.
Whether they grow together or they growth apart.
Well it depends how is the communication.
People grow cold or they grow warmer, this is how friendships grows and Family ties...
Some have blood ties and they thought because they have bloodties they need not to be constantly communicate effectively, which lead to many misunderstanding and even breaking in the family.
People hate each others, People no longer wanna talk to each other.
This is how i felt constant frustration in communication which caused me not to speak at all during this festive season of Chinese New Year.
Didn't stop me anyway, finally I have learnt to shut up and react less, yeah I admit it takes a lot of patience and handwork.
Fear and Anger has it place in me, still along way to go...
Today my Eldest sister have tasted my wrath, I have just scolded her violently with all the harsh words propelled like rockets and Flame
Well this Chinese New Year I have a few resolutions which I have promised myself, not to take things so personal in friendship, let it be for Relationship that I cannot keep, I will not sustain but abstain from it. I have decided long ago, but dare not take action. Let me face every obstacles with boldness.
Dear God, gimme strength and wisdom to overcome all the obstacles,
6th Feb 2016.... vision embedded,
